Loneliness

Just how I feel about it at the moment.

Loneliness creates paranoia
When it states that your friend missed a text
It wrecks your sanity
It says they're ignoring you
But you know that can't be true
Right?
But part of you says you annoyed them somehow
The other half tells you that they wouldn't do that
It's absurd the idea
But when you've been lonely for so long the idea of someone being a true friend can become absurd
It's a depressing reality loneliness can put you in
You overanalyze and believe what you did was somehow wrong
That joke was sleazy levels of awful
Having faith is hard
They aren't fake right
The truths in sight but your paranoia makes it look like a fun house mirror
It stirs your fears in and turns them into the reality
Sometimes it's hard to remember that your friends are there
That them ignoring you is far-fetched
They're busy and they forget to text back
Don't give them flack you do it too
But then you remember sometimes this does happen
And that means sometimes they weren't your friend

Author's Note

Criticism is welcome.