Another page about you

Dear diary: do u ever get sick of me?
Filling your pages with just one name..
I know i should stop already..
Pain and misery i'll only gain,
I would say i feel lonely..
I only got me to blame,
For living in a fairy..
That is surrounded with flames..
I try to get out of it carefully,
But it burns me again and again..
Then i'd be waiting for recovery,
Serious burns having my blood to drain..
Cutting my life slowly,
It's driving me insane..
you're all the feelings that i carry..
I selfishly wish you're feeling the same..
Writing bout me in your diary,
I'v Forgotten you i claim..
But i still think of u daily.
But it kills me just by hearing your name..
Knowing that you're living happily..
While i'm being followed by a cloud of rain..
 With every drop it's telling me..
You've already forgotten me again..

 -x-M!nO-x-