Mind switch

Hands over my head
thinking what is going on..?
Laying on this bed
when I just wanna run..

Am I too lost to be found?
I just don’t know
my thoughts are spinning around..
About things I can’t let go

I want things that I can’t have
things I shouldn’t want
feelings are so bad
I wanna do what I can’t

what the hell is wrong with me?
I shouldn’t be thinking that way
things are not like it’s supposed to be
nothing left to say..!

wake up I shout to myself
man up my best friend says
maybe I’m almost falling from the cliff
its not too late to be saved

its my chance to change everything..
a chance to start over,
no more games enough playing
its time to be sober.

and now for the first time
I feel like I can control my mind
I believe being always depressed is a crime
so instead happiness I shall find