Sometimes

A Poem by Minnie

Things that pop into your head from time to time

Waking up and dragging myself out of bed gets harder everyday. As I get ready things seem to get easier. I think of what the day contains, and just a thought of having to deal with things drains my body before I even make my next move. I look in the mirror and see a ghost, my eyes are dark, my hair frazzled, my lips chapped, my reflection looking just as tired as I feel, I move on and get ready for the day. I walk and look around, the sun hurts my eyes, I think about how I look and what the others look like, I am nothing compared to them. I watch for the bus, its time for the noise to begin, I wish it was quiet, but that will only remain and un granted wish. The couple is kissing a few seats behind me, I look away and think about the one I once thought I loved, how much I miss that feeling of being wanted instead of needed. Oh well, I shake those thoughts from my head and press on with my day. I sit in class and listen to all the other students brag about there grades, about how much they dint study and still got an A, I think of how my life would be different if I were smarter and made better decisions, I listen to my heart and it beats like a broken drum, I think of why I try and find myself in others, maybe if I just stop talking and laughing I will fall behind into the background like always and complete what needs to be done. I will fade from my friends making new friends, my families hate and success. I need to stop living to please others, and live with some kind of happiness for myself. If you get stepped on you will get somewhere just for being quiet, just taking other peoples junk, when you speak up you may be noticed and get somewhere, which road is easiest its up to you. I would like to be noticed more, but its time to be quiet and do the work, to get by and live for right now and think about tomorrow.