When I fall

                I finally feel the weight of it all. I have been know to take hurt to heart but it can be taken easier now than ever. I am just a women, a women who laughs, who cries and who wants to be wanted and needed. I remember everyone I love leaving, it makes sense, why am I so emotional. I am told to take control but then I am hated for it, betrayed because of it. I just want someone to stay, keep me grounded.

                I am grown, beyond just my young age, I recognize that now that my back is against the wall, I am alone, no one is in my corner, no one to hold my hand. I have to learn to stand and breath. Breath my pain away, breath the panic away. This world has become so clouded that all I want is some clarity.

                The moment you show weakness is the moment they devil finds you in the floor, tears flowing, and you wonder why you have crashed again. I ask myself “ why does anything I so or matter now?” I get tired, I don’t want to fight this war. I am so angry I could just run and never come back into the arms that once made me feel so free and warm.

                I just needed a person, a word of kindness to pull me back, but when the time came I was lost and alone. I cried til I chocked,  so I feel my body start to fall and this time I do not try to climb back to the top.

                All the years, all of the time, the clock is about to stop, my heart is skipping beats and I let the earth carry on.

                I step away, I do this for my own safety, and a loss of love is truly all I have ever known, I thought I could get use to it, but still to this all the doors that have shut on me, in my face, it is still the same effect.

                Today I have to keep walking, I have to act, and manage because I have a choice, like those before me, they took the wrong path, and now its my choice, and being punished for the right path is just normal for me.

                As a women I need love, and I need to shine, and when the wind of change comes, I take it with ease. I just want to fly, and instead I fall, and my time is stolen.

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

"all I want is some clarity.
The moment you show weakness is the moment they devil finds you in the floor, tears flowing, and you wonder why you have crashed again."

A well written poem. So many good lines to quote. Bravo.....................

[Minnie]

Thank you very much.

[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome...:)...........................

[Sami Khalil]

"I just needed a person, a word of kindness to pull me back, but when the time came I was lost and alone. I cried til I chocked, so I feel my body start to fall and this time I do not try to climb back to the top."