Chapter 58:

After that, me and Lianna said our goodbye’s to everyone in the temple, and continued with our journey…

For some reason, I have this feeling that everything is my fault…

-…Athenasia…-Suddenly a voice said.-It’s not your fault! You just didn’t want to be alone anymore!-It continued.-There was no telling what could happen, back then!

…?

“Back then”…?

Not wanting to be alone…?

What are you talking about…?

-I can’t tell you, Athenasia.-The voice said.-Just remember: Whatever happens, it’s not your fault!

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…Not my fault…?

 

After some time…

…I still wonder what my memory meant…

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…Sigh…

…I should stop thinking about it already…

…Nothing good will come from it…

-Lillie…?-Alliannetta suddenly said.

-…Lianna…-Said Lillianna.-What is it…?

…She has a strange face expression…

-…I feel very strange.-Said Alliannetta suddenly.-It’s probably because I suddenly remembered everything about myself…-She continued.-Those numerous memories, are just suffocating…-She became sad.-All of those memories…Together with the stronger emotions I got while living as a mortal…They are suffocating…

…They are suffocating…?

-Especially that tragic memory that can’t get out of my mind, no matter how hard I try to ignore it.-Said Alliannetta.-The memory of the “Bloody war”…

…The “Bloody war”!!!

As I remember learning, wasn’t that the most bloodied war ever…?

Between all of the races…?

That started because of hate…?

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…Lianna, probably hurt the most from it…

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-Want to tell me about it…?-Asked Lillianna. Alliannetta was a little surprised.

-…Yes.-Said Alliannetta. �"It happened 3,666 years ago, when the world was still new.-She started telling.-Those were dark times, when different races fought between each other, murdering each other, to wipe the other race from the face of the world.-She said sadly.-I asked them why they did it for numerous times, and was speechless at their answers every time.-She continued, more sad.-It was pure hate, just for being a little different from each other. It was pure hate…pure hate…-…This is horrible…!!!-“Is that really a reason…?”, “Is that really a reason for all of this fighting, this killing, this murdering…?”, “Why…? Why…?? Why are they murdering their brothers and sisters…???!”, “I don’t understand it…I don’t understand it at all”, “Why…???”…Those were the things I thought about the most, at that time…-…She looks so sad…-Of course, I tried talking to them, stopping them…But it just got worse…They started thinking that I am picking favorites…They didn’t want to listen to reason…-She continued, while sighing.-Then I decided to talk with Eleneos and Allttia about it. Allttia just called them “Dumb”, while Eleneos’s response surprised both of us. He said:”Damn insects…” and when he saw our surprised faces, He just said: “I just said what I thought…” Me and Allttia just shook his strange response off. We should have asked him what’s wrong…-…-…I was really worried, there was supposed to be a “once in every year god meeting” in 33 days, 7 hours, 13 min and 43 sec, a meeting that I had to attend, and that is held in a place completely separated from our worlds, in ‘Eternello Cosmo”, a place from which I can’t make contact with my world at all.-…She was really worried…-Allttia immediately understood that I was worried, that my children would start fighting again. Eleneos even commented that they even forgot that I am practically their mother. To which I responded with “And they say that it’s for my sake and for the sake of the world…”. Allttia commented about how stupid my children are, which made me, even sadder. Our talk ended with me being very sad, Eleneos being angry and Allttia being confused.-She sighed.-…Then, we had the gods meeting in Naioyullin hall in “Eternello Cosmo”, where the time run a lot slower than in any other place or world. We were talking a lot, discussing different things, like our importance in our worlds and the universe itself.-Then her face darkened.-…Suddenly, I heard a deep cry coming from my world… I could hear the cries, the desperation, the fear, the hate…I could feel the world shake, as it was overflowed with blood…I could feel every single life dimming away…All of their memories, dreams, hopes…Their whole existence…Dimming away…Millions dimming lights…Millions tiny worlds…Dying…My children were dying…-She continued while crying again.-I wanted to return to my world right away…But all of us Gods and Goddesses, gave our word to not leave the meeting until it’s over, or the others will destroy our worlds…That is how important the meeting is…But at the time…Going to stop my children, was more important than anything…So, I anxietly waited, until the meeting was over…Hoping that…The killings would stop…Chanting them to stop…But…They continued…And continued…And by the end of the meeting, I felt myself break apart…”Why…??? Why…??? Why…???!!! Stop it!!! Stop it!!! Stop it, please!!!” I thought in despair…And teleported to my world…-…Lianna…-I teleported right above the “battlefield”, floating in the air. I must have been crying really hard, since everyone looked at me with confused and stunned looks. I wasn’t surprised, since we gods are known for having more control on our emotions, and for me to cry so much, something horrible must happen.-She explained.-“Why are you fighting…???” I asked them in despair, “Why are you killing each other…??? Why are you murdering your brothers and sisters…???”, I was shattered, like a piece of broken glass,” Is it because of differences in race…?”, The mere thought made me mad, “You call that a reason…???!!!”, I didn’t care that a dark light has appeared around me, “You dare, to call that a reason for murdering your brothers and sisters, thinking that I will approve of it, saying that it’s for my sake and for the future of the world, and completely forgetting that I am your mother!!! Is that how, you decided to repay me for everything??? You Cruel, shameless traitors!!!”, I must have really been mad at the time, since there was complete silence. “Do you really think, it’s okay to do something like that…???”, I asked them sadly. “No, It’s…”-Then she sighed.-Then they tried to explain themselves, “It’s not like that…!!!”, someone said, But I didn’t care about who it was at the time. “Really…??? Does not seem like that to me, thought…”, I said coldly. “You are really dumb!!! All of you…Are really dumb…”, I was sad again. “Do you even know what common sense is…???”, then tears dropped from my eyes, and soon rain started pouring on the “battlefield”. Everyone were silent seeing that and shook their heads as if apologizing. But it wasn’t enough for me…It wasn’t enough…“If you don’t get it, I will tell you…”, I said cunningly, “Who the person is have nothing to do with race, gender, belief…”, I continued sadly, “Every person has his own character, his own thoughts and his own dreams…There’s good and bad people anywhere…”, I added. “So, putting everyone together, and saying that all of them are bad and need to die, only because you saw a bad person there, is a sin, a horrible sin it is…”, I ended with complicated emotions. �"She made a pause.-I decided to revive everyone who died in that stupid war. “I will be going to my palace now…”, I said while turning away, “I won’t be reacting to your requests for a while…”, I continued, “So don’t bother praying…”, I said coldly and disappeared in a silver light, teleporting away. �"She ended the story and looked on Lillianna.-Maybe, I overdid it a little…-She said closing her eyes.-But I was very sad and angry back then…-She continued, opening her eyes again. - It hurt very badly…- She said sadly-It wasn’t this painful even when Eleneos attacked me…

…Lianna…

…This is just horrible…!!!

…Are all gods and goddesses…???

-Lillie…-Said Alliannetta suddenly, with complicated emotions.-It’s a curse…

…A curse…?

-Our whole existence…-Said Alliannetta.-…Is a curse…

…Whole existence…?

…A curse…?

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…Lianna…