The Beast Inside

We have inner demons. The parts of us we want to hide, the monsters that rage under our skin.

I feel it crawling inside,

There is no where I can hide,

There’s a monster hiding under my skin

I feel it tearing my soul within,

I see it when I look in the mirror,

It’s more hideous than I feared.

My skin hides the truth of who I am,

But don’t trust me, because I’m a scam.

I’m a monster in saint’s clothing,

I am the very thing I’m loathing;

My pure soul with sin’s dark taint,

I’m a sinner and a saint;

I’m a beauty and a beast.

My soul’s a demon’s feast.

This is one thing I can’t fight,

My beast inside, black as night.

Reviews

[Matthew Kult]

Hello Mike Wolfe,

Great writer name by the way.

Demons within. I am one of those who enjoy having the touch of the dark side. No not the Jedi power, although that would be cool as f**k. But to feel the power and control over someone, to be their saint only to burn them in your sin. Can be exhilarating.

The ripping of skin, the screams of agony...ok okay I need a cold shower. Anyway, yes this is a look into ones soul. The sinner who is to become a saint and to offer warnings to anyone willing to enter his sphere of existence. A honest to life penance, or another way to trick the naïve into loving you.

bravo.

With love,

Matthew

[Mike Wolfe]

I wouldn't exactly say exhilarating is the right word. We all have beasts inside. Deep, dark secrets and skeletons in closets. And get too comfortable with the monsters and it will kill you. Check out Skillet's song "Monster" for another perspective on this.

[Matthew Kult]

Sometimes, we are the monster.

[Mike Wolfe]

We aren't our emotions. We aren't our feelings. We aren't our lusts and desires. We are souls in the middle of a tug of war. Like an ancient Indian story says "Inside we have two wolves, one of darkness and one of light. The one that wins is the one you feed."

[Matthew Kult]

We aren't shells. We are exactly what our emotions are, our feelings, our desires, and to some our lusts. Granted I will give you the wolf since everyone can and does do good to someone and we do bad to others. However, we are what we are and that is dictated by our personal emotions. Like with music not everyone likes the same thing, what makes one better than the other...personal feelings and emotions. Our souls are just the energy within that gives us life but our life is what our emotions dictate. People are their own being because of the emotions and the levels we share. What our feelings tell us is what we do. They make us who we are.

Shells are those who walk around and have nothing, nothing to be passionate about, nothing to desire, nothing to strive for. If you think you can change who you are by being nice or caring to an over abundance because that's feeding the light wolf then you are just fooling yourself and there will be a day when it all comes tumbling down. And who is to say that the darkness can't be the good and the light the bad? Isn't that itself a personal interpretation based on emotions and feelings?

[Mike Wolfe]

Ah, but light and darkness are not dictated by emotions. If I feel the urge to kill someone just because I have a knife and need to feel powerful, it is wrong. By every standard it is wrong. It is an absolute. But who sets the absolutes? God. And our souls are not just shells. I make no argument against emotion and I do not say we are shells. Souls are who we are. If we are ruled by emotions, then why do we restrain ourselves? Why are there certain situations where everything in us is telling us to do something and we don't? We do not give in to every emotion and every feeling. Because we are more than emotion. Emotion is not who we are. Emotion is the blood of the soul. Just as blood gives the body life, emotion brings souls to life. But on its own, blood is not the body. Being kind, doing good work, they don't fix emotions. They don't kill the wolf of darkness. In is only through Christ that we can put it to death. Once and for all. The blood of Jesus Christ cleanses us from all sin. Check out my story Crimson Tide for more of my view on this.

[Matthew Kult]

Because we don't give in to that emotion doesn't mean that emotion doesn't exist and we are more than that emotion. You want to see everything in Black and White, light and Dark, but there is so much grey area that you seem to want to write off as us being more than emotions. Every situation is dictated differently not by who we are but what is around us. A killer has a knife and kills but he kills a man about to murder his son. A display of power by killing is wrong...yes to you and to most of Society, yet the man who murders with a knife to show power is in the middle of a war and its kill or be killed. Who is wrong? We aren't black and white, we aren't light and dark. We are who we are, and if your Deity is the only one who can cleanse your darkness...then so be it. Good.

[Mike Wolfe]

I never made the case that emotion doesn't exist. But we are more than that because we are able to overcome them. You can't beat something that you are. I can not turn my eyes blue because I want them to be blue. Only nature or God could do that. There are moral dilemmas. I will not argue. But in the case you mentioned, the father is not a killer. He is a savior. He is not taking a life by choice, he is saving his son's. And your right we aren't light and dark. We are all dark. Any work of light we do is countered by any act of darkness. We fight our dark side with more darkness. Because we can not create light, we must depend on God for it.

[Mike Wolfe]

I personally do not like internet arguments because they are fairly pointless. No matter how many arguments either of us throw out, neither of us will be convinced. I let my work speak for itself and will not further discuss the topic, not because I don't have more to say, but because it is pointless for me to say it.

[Matthew Kult]

I concur. I like the discussion. And it didn't get rude. which makes it worth the effort.

[Holly]

OMG!! This is so good. I loved it :)

[Mike Wolfe]

Thank you so much!

[Tina Louise UK]

I love this, your right we all have one...mine has showed it's ugly head more than a few times. Food for thought, enjoyed :) x

[Mike Wolfe]

Thank you!

[Sami Khalil]

The duality of our world and inner beings... A splendid read and write...:)..................

[Mike Wolfe]

Thanks! Glad you enjoyed it

[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome...:)...................