Darkness

What happens if we peer into our very souls?

I open my eyes to darkness.

Not a normal blackness. It seems alive, like it would swallow any light that dared try to illuminate it.

It felt like I was underwater.

Then my senses began to come alive. It started slowly, a tingling feeling that was slowly seeping into my skin, a burning, getting stronger every second. I recoiled at first, but realized that it felt…good.

 I felt it sink through my pores and rage through my blood. I didn’t resist. All of a sudden it felt like whatever had just been pumped through my body had turned to fire.

I hear a scream, and it is several seconds before I realized it was mine.

Overwhelming fear racks my body. What is this? Where am I? What is this stuff?

My lungs burn from not taking a breath, and the scream had choked the last of my oxygen. I fought the need, but my reflexes took over and I sucked in. Inhaling the black stuff.

It hit my lungs like a multi-ton weight, smashing everything inside. It burned like an inferno. But it lasted only a second.

I breathed out, and in, gasping for breath. The blackness was squeezing me from the inside on itself. My lungs were being crushed by an invisible force. My heart strained for every beat.

I kept breathing the darkness.

Ever so slowly, the pain ebbed away and was replaced by an emptiness. A cold emptiness that seemed to take away my breath.

I became paralyzed and even if I could move, I didn’t want to. There was nothing I could do anymore.

My mind began to shut down. Defeated.

That’s when I heard the voice…it was in my mind and at first I thought it was my imagination.

Do you want me Adam?

I couldn’t be real.

Do you want my love Adam?

I couldn’t imagine that. I strained to open my eyes. In the middle of the blackness, there was a tiny pin-point of light.

Come to me Adam

But I can’t. I can’t move. I can barely breathe.

Come

I extend my arms and try to swim through the darkness. My joints scream in pain and my skin feels like it cracks.

The inky blackness hits me like a battering ram. It throws me back like a riptide.

I fight against it, straining with all my strength to reach the light. I can’t. I’m powerless in this darkness.

Do you want me Adam?

Everything in me screams yes. But I can’t get to you.

Say it

“Yes,” I whisper into the blackness. I felt the pain ebb away slightly.

Say it

“Yes,” I said, a little louder than the last time. A spark of electricity rippled down my spine.

Like you mean it

“YES!” I scream with everything I have in me. White light envelops my vision. My skin exploded with power, healing. Goosebumps ripple on my arms and every nerve of my body shimmers with pleasure. The light racks my body and fills it with strength.

Do you love me?

There is only one answer I can give. “Yes! Yes! I love you!”

I burst into spasms of laughter. Overcome by the light, overcome by love.

I love you Adam