Unsure

Everything is fine

When everything really isn’t

I can say the opposite of what I want to say

I can’t say what I really feel

I can make things up

I can’t tell you the truth though

I wonder which you prefer more

I know what I want to say

What do you want to hear though?

Not hurting you is what I’ll do

Therefore, I won’t say the truth

I don’t care if it’s a lie

I hope you don’t care either

I hope you fall out of it

Kinda like I did

It was then and it was different

What’s happened now

I wonder if it’s changeable

Will this be different?

For worse or better?

I don’t know

My feelings have changed

They aren’t what they use to be

It wasn’t long ago I felt this way

I don’t know why

I feel happy

Something is holding it back though

Is it I?

Am I holding myself back?

What is there to be afraid of?

Why do I want to run?

I’m so happy

I’m full of joy

I couldn’t feel better

So why am I making myself feel this way?

It happened when I don’t know

I wish I knew what it was

I’ve felt it at the bottom of my heart

Since the very first moment

It’s struggling to come out of the pit of my stomach

The words want to crawl out of my mouth

Pour out like fluid

Fall from my hands like broken pieces

Something that once use to be so beautiful

The nights that have passed

They take me back every time

Bringing up the old

Comparing with the new

I can’t change my mind

When will I tell you?

It’s raining in my eyes

I’m not determined to break the bond

It’s not over just yet is it?

I’m picking up the falling pieces

Trying to put something back together

That would bloom only once in a lifetime

The words scream behind a closed mouth

Nothing is left

Everything is gone

Slowly it’s becoming worse

Can I turn back though?

If it’s all over?

What can I say?

What do I want?

It hit me in the face too late

What I said I meant

My words are truthful

Yet their meanings are lies

Why can’t things just be right?

Why do humans make things wrong?

It’s the hardest choice

When can I make the choice though?

It’s the only way

That’s if I want to be happy

Do you?

Because I don’t want to cause you sadness

All you have given me is happiness

I just don’t think I need it

How can I be sure?

I can’t remember what we said when we first met

I want to bring up the old issues

I want to remember what made it this way

Why do I feel bad and not good?

I thought I couldn’t hold back from you

I need you

I thought you were the one I could talk to

To start fresh

I feel like something so beautiful that just began

I want to turn into something terrible with an ending

I wish I could go back and push you away

It’s falling apart

I wish it were the same for you

It’s all over

So soon?

Just going to leave without turning back

Will it be just that easy?

Tell me what I want to hear…

Therefore, I won’t have to say it…

Sadly, I can’t change my heart…

Too bad, I can’t feel differently…

I’m sorry; I can’t change my mind…