Into a feild of Shadows

this is about my walk with something that is still tearing me apart

Into the field of shadows

Another,
More,
Another
More,
Another,
and some more.

Thats how it plays out,
like a story,
one that you can never escape,
one that seems to follow you even after you close the book.

As the pages turn you feel the cuts go deeper and deeper,
every page leaves its mark on you and everyone who ends up seeing that page.
No this is not a happy story,
not one with fairy's and unicorns,
this is one with death and desertion,
the pain,
suffering and
submission to a tool.

It temps me and calls to me,
after that it tells me lies that i believe,
it coaxes me,
tells me everything will be all right,
that I am not alone in this world.

After he left it was the one to comfort my flesh,
it was also the one to make the wounds stay open longer than I hoped,
it make them deeper,
wider,
longer,
than i had ever expected.

Time to walk again through the valley of the shadows with my little friend...
 
dear friend,
do you ever think about yourself,
maybe getting a friend for yourself?
Do you ever feel the need to let go and try again?

No,
because you deal out pain you don't take it in,


Not with your sharp as steel edges and cool grip,


I love you so much even though I gave you up days ago...


But i hear you calling to me once again...

Author's Note

this isnt a final it had some grammer issues mostly with the i's

Reviews

[ATG]

It didn't have any noticeable grammer issues. In fact, I found this quite beautiful to read in an odd way. The subject matter was dark, but well written. The poem was captavating.