Brain Chemicals

Brain Chemicals


Perhaps he never broke my heart.
Though I’d love to blame
all the sleepless nights spent
counting cracks in the ceiling
and digging my sharp nails into callused palms
on his
smile…

I can’t,

because despite romantics,
my heart is still in tact.
It’s not glass, and it hasn’t shattered-
that’s impossible.
It’s a lump of red tissue
with a steady-
albeit slightly slow at the moment-
beat that keeps on beating
through storms and starry skies.

My brain chemicals,
however,
have been drawn out in some cynical, martyring
experiment of jubilation and self mutilation.
Instead of mixing red and blue to make purple,
I smashed every vial, in violation of my will,
(though how could I fight myself?)
and turned my autumn bliss grey.
An abyss that specializes in dizzying numbness,
and, maybe that’s okay.

So no, perhaps he did not break my heart.
Perhaps he was just a boy,
a red leaf that inevitably fell from my autumn tree.
And perhaps this bitter cold is my own doing.

Author's Note

I'm a bit of a cynic at heart

Reviews

[Sir Drift & Mr. Pulse]

Perhaps, just maybe, and that is why, the world spins on its own, perhaps it never really spun and decided to after such long years

[Personne]

Ah, this was so cool! It feels like a very scientific poem, which, in itself, is quite ironic (to me at least). The imagery of you smashing the vials was poignant. This whole poem was poignant, honestly, and I think that makes it so good. The last phrase left me with such a cold feeling, but I loved it! I feel like that was a point of your poem, perhaps.

Thank you for sharing this!

[Lost in Wonderland]

Thank you so much:)

[Anonymous -]

the ending .... wow ! thats all i can say , just wow

[Lost in Wonderland]

Thank you!

[rudelizard]

A poem after my own heart. I love this piece. The raw, visceral emotion that confine us to heartbreak. While heartbreak may manifest in different ways for each of us, I can't help but relate on many levels. Looking forward to reading more of your work. Thank you for sharing!

[Lost in Wonderland]

Thank you very much for the review :)
God bless

[KanaDream]

I love the realistic look at love/heart break. The reasoning and the scientific approach to the strange phenomenon. It's a sad poem, but, being rather cynical about love myself, I rather enjoyed the twist. Great job! And my condolences if this is based on true occurrences. The good thing about all heartache is the ability to repair and the inspiration it brings.

Keep Dreaming. ^^

[Lost in Wonderland]

Thank you very much for the review!
God bless