A Lover's Hell

Impossible to love

Ha maybe its true

No matter how much I try

It seems I'm not able to

Either I say to much

Or not enough

Running away

Leaving him in the dust

Because with all my issues

How could I trust

Him to hold on to this hurricane

I keep telling him I'm wrong

If he leaves I'd take the blame

I'm not worthy anyway

I say I want this love

My charming prince

But after years

He's still taking my happiness

Hurting others 

Seemingly hoping to hurt myself

Cause thats all I know with this stuff

A lover's hell

Author's Note

heartache, my old muse, has returned to me

Reviews

[Pax]

i felt your sadness yet again my friend... i hope your doing fine...yes heartaches makes a best muse for our writes... but it also helps us understand and accept(in the future and oh i see now that you can relate to my poem...i hope it helps you abit somehow) what is the mistakes/foolishness that life has brought us... we learn everyday... we suffer or live everyday... so we keep up and live up to the pains and happiness we just learn how to handle it with our wisdom and our heart that see and felt all things around... Keep strong... for i know you have passed these test/challenge before, now you know how to handle it with out-most care because we know mistakes doesn't repeat if we let it...

keep writing, keep dreaming and keep strong my friend...

[Lost in Wonderland]

thanks you Willyam...I'll try
God bless

[Pax]

pray to him... he always answers in the most unoticed ways...
you just have to listen to your heart my friend...
and god will always listen...
god bless to you too...
and your most welcome...

[Lost in Wonderland]

I'm praying...I think I'm just scared to hear an answer. Thank you for the support and advice:)

[Pax]

no problem... I'm a friend who will support your all the way... :)
and well aren't we all afraid somehow of the expectation and anwers we all hope for...
i hope its just as easy as jumping blind-fold and never expect anything...
but its hard right.... i can only say you deserved to be love and be strong...

[Clockwork]

Ah, how heartache often prompts us to turn to art. It is as if it compels some aspect of our soul to see with clearer vision. In our deepest moments of heartache, we can see the world in ways we never knew possible.

As you identify in this piece in the last four lines, it is an agonizing place to be. It makes us feel like less, like we don't belong. However, I would say that if we are all made in the image of our creator with his love, then we too are worthy of love. While our heart may break one moment, that experience could be the thing that expands our understanding and opens us for joy.

Oh, you have gotten me thinking with this one! Hang in there and know you are never alone.

[Lost in Wonderland]

thank you so much...its just been a while. But I've been praying for God to speak and I think He just used you too. This made me cry haha so thank you/ God bless:)

[Clockwork]

You are welcome!

[Lost in Wonderland]

:)