But still ...

... a dedication to all that behold heartbreaking hope

I have fallen down the rabbit hole 

Perversion permeates my thoughts 

Every cell in my brain tires

Abused to the point of nefarious collapse 

Rain spatters the windows; there will be no sun today 

Only doleful somber and drear

Forsaken is childrens’ laughter 

Displaced by paralyzing silence 

A meaningless life; unfulfilled and moot as a bird poking for worms on the freeway 

Humorous to some, disheartened by few, ignored by most 

Today is Christmas 

Supposed bliss abandoned years in advance 

I am broken, I am solemn, I am neither here nor anywhere 

A misguided conceptualized existence 

The faint presence of a tattered calendar of which reads December 25 clings desperately to its hold,

It is sadly the last and only reminder 

Years have past since I have felt their presence 

Lying in a cell with no bars; doors that await their simplified purpose 

But still,

I am a prisoner of my own devices

Reviews

[Vertigo Cat1111]

This is such a beautiful, honest and creative poem that holds so many emotions. I have to say 'Supposed bliss abandoned years in advance' has to be one of my very favorite lines in poetry I have ever read. This is gorgeous and so relatable, it really reaches out with feeling and touches the heart.

[Michelle Lauren]

Thx so so much for your shared sentiments and to have a line in a poem that resonates so deeply to someone that it becomes a favorite, well, I am flattered beyond words. The story of how I came to write this was truly magical and hopefully transcends to the reader; for I do believe this is my own personal favorite writing I have put pen to. Thx for the kind words Colacat; very much appreciated. .... stay safe xo

[poetgurl]

such a creative write here, really enjoyed this

[Michelle Lauren]

Thx for taking the time to read my poem and your kind words .... much appreciated .... be safe xo