My Beloved Bestfriend, Krystal Rose Alderink. Rest in peace, beautiful.

Rest in peace love. <3

May 7th, 2012, Monday morning.
Krystal was very troubled, she had depression, was addicted to drugs in the past, but was 5 days from being 1 whole year sober. I'm so proud of her.

She also had prom that coming friday, and was about to have her permit sent in the mail.

Monday morning, I wouldn't have expected something like this.
It was a pretty good day at school. But then, I got home.

I'd gotten picked up from school by my mom, which usually she never does, because I live 4 blocks from school, so I usually walk home.

She had tears in her eyes, I'd wondered what had been going on.

She looked at me, and she said the following;

"Michelle, I need you to sit down. I have to tell you something."  *as she studders her voice*

I thought to myself, I was very confused..

I'd asked her what it was..

"Krystal comitted suicide last night."

 

I paused.

I couldn't move.

Did I just learn to find out that I have just lost the first friend I'd ever met in my life, since preschool. The girl I'd been through my whole life with practically..?

I instantly broke down.

I couldn't do this.

 

I'd never cried that much in my entire life, Especially knowing how many friends I have that are suicidal.

I couldn't make it through school.

I failed my classes.

I'm sitting in summer school at this very moment.

It's August 1st, and you're never off of my mind, Krystal Rose.

 

This coming Friday, I'm playing the song I wrote you on guitar for you at you're grave.

I'm bringing along Molly, Alexis, and Abdo.

You don't know Abdo, he's my ride to see you.

I always talked about you to him, and when he heard the news, he even cried, because I always wanted you to meet him.

 

June 25, I took you're advice Krystal.

 

I had been in a verbally abusive, manipulitive relationship that I couldn't get myself out of.

You had been at my house for ten-fifteen minutes, after a year of not seeing you.

And Brandon walked out of the room, and you instantly said "you don't deserve the way he treats you, you deserve better, you need to lay down the line."

 

As usual, Michelle doesn't listen to her friends ..

This was currently 23 weeks ago, that you'd said this.

I took you're advice, and I've never been happier in my life, well except when you were here.

 

Now I'm in a great relationship.

 

Anyways, Long story short,

 

I miss you, Krystal Rose.

And I love you, with all of my heart. <3