Contractions and Contradictions

I’m losing the battle between myself and myself. Does that mean I’m winning? It’s irrelevant.

I’m addicted to the burn of Listerine because it’s the only thing that gets the taste of you out of my mouth. I’m addicted to the incessant gnawing of a tattoo needle on my flesh because it’s the only thing that embeds you into my skin. I’m addicted to scrubbing my body raw because I can still feel your hands. I'm addicted to the coastline because the prospects of drowning are intriguing. I’m addicted to being the failure because that’s when you f**k me the hardest. I’m addicted to you rubbing my back in circles because it always manages to unknot the anxiety, grief and desolation.

And I’m tired of all these addictions but I’m still me and you’re still you and when we inhale we exhale shallowly.

Reviews

[Kitty]

A powerful and emotional piece. I love this line:
"I'm addicted to being the failure because that's when you f**k me the hardest".
It has such relevance to my life...

Great job!!!

Josie