All Is Lost

seperated by two...circa 99'

I can't fight the thoughts away.

Your face haunts my dreams...

when I close my eyes I see you.

Even though I don't want to feel you.

I can see us fading away.

Your touch is gone...

your presence beside me has left...

And the feeling in my heart is pain.

Yet you plunge the needle in my vein.

By being the illusion you are.

Twisted I've become...

Hoping the day would come.

Where we would come together as one.

 

 

You destroy me...

with the silence...

Pain...

Your misery...

Your hate.

Its living inside you...

And shows me that you don't care.

 

 

Heaven opened itself without you being there.

I lift up towards the clouds being comforted.

But you don't give a damn when I am down.

Only when I rise you destroy me.

Days have gone.

That no words can describe...

These feelings that show up inside.

Only you can heal these cutz in my soul. 

The love is gone...

Yet you are here and only you know why.

It's loving you that keeps me alive...

It's loving you that strengthens me to survive...

It's the dreams that come alive at night...

When I'm just thinking of you.

 

I'll never speak to you...

You'll never see me...

Even though you fear me..

I'll never disturb you....

Even though I LOVE YOU.

I would never hurt you...

Never again can I have you...

In all this time I have lost you...

Wondering why you left me.

Wishing I had some kind of reason...

never getting my answers.

Wanting you so desprately.

That this is my demise.

Fucked in a relationship of mine.

That you would never listen...

your mind is made up...

So what can I do.

This is probably for the best...

Even though I don't see it the way you do.

How could this have happened???

I can't stand life with you...

But I feel empty without you.

I am on the other side of the rainbow...

everything is black and white.

and has no meaning.

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[Jane]

Always wonder what a writer is actually thinkn about when the write their best :/