Hey, You

A Poem by alphawoman

“ dearest, your warmth is the calmness of my heart”

Did I ever went to a long-century sleep?
For all the years I’ve been pacing
down the streets
I never met someone that knows me
the way you do

Consistently, I chose the wrong before

I saved myself to someone who speaks my language,
the thorns of my trauma,
the horrors of my past;
all things Ieft unsaid�"
all the love i could give

You see,
all those years we knew each other,
we familiarize our patterns,
we grow together

We see pain, triumph and called in our favors

And then we outgrew our past

You found her
I found boys

And while I was looking the distinct compatibility for every chance I bet
with every man I have come to love,

Unfortunately,
I have never found one.

They are unlike you.

Your presence-despite flaws,
our memories shared,
the kiss we sealed,
the chance we eat, laugh and talk movies

even songs we love to sing…

These made me think of all the passerby lovers in my life

How come I keep finding it to them?
Asking when will I feel alive again?

When I have it in you.

When I feel it when i’m with you.

You see,
That’s my truth,
I have loved them
to patch the feeling of emptiness I never felt from you
Endlessly wishing I hope you’d come around anytime soon.

I have the convenience of saying yes to them because it made me forget you
or was it because you grew your memory in me so strong that it stings down to my core?

You immortalized my being in just one snap.

You were there, all along
saying how beautiful I am when you brush my hair covering my face.
Kissing my fingers while you holding my hand and fooling me around saying confidently “your words are driving me crazy.”

You rolled your dice, call in the gods for a risk worthy of your love and time.

I am grateful it turned out fine,
for we are so happy, desperately making plans

You were never gone, the entirety of your being was imprinted to mine.

How can I be so blind all this time?

It was you all along, it never changed.

We grow up together,
never heard from each other,
you came back and love me better.