No Clear Escape

There was this boy. He took everything from me. I ignored the warnings of others for I thought I could find the good in him. All that I ended up finding was just how cruel he really could be. To him I lost my innocence and I'll never get it back.

He knows he has me tied to him.

The day is slow and the night is long,

he's grown stronger.

If only I could walk away.

If only I could turn away.

 

Whispered words and broken promises are the dying

petals of vine wrapped around my ankle,

pink and purple, luscious and colorful.

Can he add water? Will they grow again?

 

When he walks into the room everything goes blurry.

I'm dizzy with anxiety and can't breath through the thick air.

The seductive effects he has upon me are unexplainable.

He knows they're there, and takes pride in expoiting them.

 

Will he clear the air with the truth?

He said he loved me, that he needed me more than anything.

Was that just a desperate hope in getting what he wants?

Or were they words muttered from the heart?

Will I ever really know?

 

He could lose me, but he won't.

I can't stand up and say no.

I can't let go unless he does.

But he keeps calling, keeps reeling me back into our secret life.

There is no clear escape ahead.

 

Desperation fills my heart and soul.

Does he love me?

When I crawl on my knees I get no simple answer.

Instead my thoughts go dizzy.

I give in to his wants, to his desires.

 

Our nights are filled with lust.

I feel his warm breath upon my skin.

Rough, callused hands caress my young, inexperienced body.

His sweet aroma entangles me deeper into his web.

It has no effect on the cold, dark feelings inside.

How do I let go?

 

Does he love me?

Do you love me?

 

What am I to you?

Do you love me or are you only using me?

Solace in the fact that I'll say yes?

 

I can't go on living like this.

Every time, you tke a part of me.

You steal my innocence, steal my self respect.

Please let me go.

Please give me back my life.

Please extend beyond selfishness.

Reviews

[Mr.TrippS]

i dig your poem.

[KEENAMARiE]

i felt it all..love this!

[PENS FOR PEACE /TJ CALI..]

Great poem! felt your pain! We all have losting something in the fiery trails of life!
Some just some more than others! Keep writing, for all around but also with passion (like you have)
To heal your soul!
Love it!
TIM