An apology for you my first love

Not really a poem just words i wanted to be somewhere

If we had a redo, I would take it without flinching.

I would go back and change every last thing.

The way I looked at you, talked to you, and most importantly the way I treated you.

I never deserved the feelings you gave me

and perhaps that is why they were taken from me.

I have never felt the same way since.

It's like you took a small part of me with you when you left.

I no longer blame you, by the way, for leaving. I am not longer mad.

I have made peace with the anger I felt and I have replaced it with regret.

I regret the times I made you feel not good enough

and even more, I regret the times I made you feel unsure.

I was as happy as I think I will ever be.

You were my everything and if I had a redo I would take it in two seconds.

I know that I can never fix all that I have broken

But please know that I tried to love you with every ounce in me.

Author's Note

For anyone who has read any of my other poems this one is different. This is the one and only poem about a boy named Stephen. I will not do another on him, for I have came to peace with what happened. I wrote this months ago when it happened and I wanted it to be somewhere , somewhere I know I can always look back on. Thank you x

Reviews

[aj milton]

This is something that many will relate to. Hindsight is just too real. So many of us will have wished for a redo button in our mid teens! You capture that regret very eloquently.

[Toxic Angel]

This piece is really good, I love the way the you still see beauty in what was taking away from you and its truly relatable the way regret replaces anger, it happens almost always, also the use of words and the way you expressed it is great, keep it up