So you see the way I feel it

When I speak of you

I tell them of dreams

The you I wish I knew

Here. Today

You were frail and I was scared

Hiding behind see-through facades

Pointless and comforting

 

I’m still curious

How exactly do they expect me

To live without your voice

I knew it well, the sound of love

Please don’t ask me to describe it

I’m afraid they’ll see

I might have forgotten

Let it be my secret

My private shame

 

“Mummy please! I love you”

As if that would keep you here

I have no way of knowing

I wasn’t there

I know you loved me

Did you?

I’ll die wondering, regretting  

It’s mine to keep, a souvenir

So they know you’re missed

 

I walked backwards in circles for you

Maybe God would be kind

Reward my dizziness

Stop time. Take me back

I wouldn’t stay long

I’d hold your hand

Maybe if I was brave

I’d tell you we’d be fine

Without tears

You’d believe me, for my sake

 

Breathe deep until the air around us

Wasn’t enough to keep your heart beating

Peace would kiss your eyelids

Telling you to let go

Telling me to do the same

 

Miracles are for the rarest occasions

We aren’t so lucky

Do you know that I loved you?

Everything good in me

Is because you lived and loved me

Beautiful and perfect

Even your flaws glowed

I saw that, I won’t forget

Author's Note

I wrote this for my mother…26th of October was our birthday, she always said I was the best birthday gift she had and would ever have…she was mine best birthday gift too, even more so! In honour of my mummy and the biggest heart I ever knew!

Reviews

[Faffy]

there is are words to describe how much emotion there is in here. the amount of meaning and emotion you pack into every single word is amazing
"I walked backwards in circles for you
Maybe God would be kind
Reward my dizziness
Stop time. Take me back
I wouldn’t stay long
I’d hold your hand
Maybe if I was brave
I’d tell you we’d be fine
Without tears
You’d believe me, for my sake"

these were my favorite lines (they were hard to pick =P ) i love them because it was the turning point for me they actually set me in a mood which was both creepy and beautiful to be able to feel somewhat how you felt.

amaaaazingly well written!

if you ever stop writing, sleep with one eye open =P

-roshan

[Mia]

What do I even say to that!!! Wow :D I'm speechless...just wow!

[Southern Cross]

Brought me to tears this beautiful loving poem. " Do you know that I loved you?
Everything good in me
Is because you lived and loved me
Beautiful and perfect
Even your flaws glowed
I saw that, I won’t forget" This too I could relate to as all the clouds that shadowed my relationship with my own Mother seemed so meaningless in the big scheme of it all..and I am because she was...Thank you Mia this poem is an emotional masterpiece

[Mia]

I am so humbled! Thank you, I can't tell you how much this means to me!

[DrD]

Mia, I have visited much of your work and this one strikes me as being special. There is so much of you in it and it was not written without a tear or two. I deeply appreciated this work and it was an honor to read it.

[Mia]

This poem means the most to me. I can't tell you what it means that you saw that.

[dunnia]

wow this is amazing......i loved all of it....and you WILL be a published writer someday if you keep this up well done :)

[Mia]

Thank you, you made me day! All smiles :D

[dunnia]

your welcome XD

[Erinne S.]

Every line is packed full to the brim with emotion. The longing and memories are all spilled out on this page... I loved it and the wording you chose. There could not have been a better way to word or express your deep emotions running through every line. Great job!

~Erinne

[Mia]

Thank you so much, that really means a lot to me! I am overwhelmed by your kindness!

[Ahmad Cox]

Hug. This was so beautiful. Every line and passage serves to offer the emotion in this piece. I hope you are able to get to a point of healing and acceptance.

[Mia]

HUG :)
Thank you, your kindness and wonderful hopes mean a lot to me.

[Dr. Wood ?]

there are too many lines to name that I love about this...It is a fine tribute and a poignant call...Very touching...

[Mia]

Thank you David! I appreciate you reading this

[Sid]

A very poignant piece, your love and longing are very evident in this poem. The love you feel for a parent is something incomparable and I'm sorry for you loss; it's something you can't really ever get over but you have accept it and move forward...Great write!!

[Mia]

Truth! Thank you!!

[Coyote Poetry]

A very sad and beautiful poem. You took me on a emotional journey with your words. Some parts of us cannot be forgotten. They become permanent scars on the heart and mind. Thank you for sharing the outstanding poem.
Coyote

[Mia]

Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. Your review, as always, is much appreciated!

[PoemsbyPatrick]

This strikes deep into my soul, as it touches the most crushing thing a parent can imagine. All we can do is love them while they are with us and hope, sadly, that it they that will mourn us.

[Mia]

Thank you Patrick, I appreciate you stopping by. This is about my mother; she died when I was 17.

[PoemsbyPatrick]

So sorry, I read it as a mother's loss of a child. The loss of those so close to us is perhaps the most difficult thing that we must face in our fragile existences.

[Mia]

No need to be sorry :)
I don't think we ever get to a place where we understand. But life goes on despite our efforts to try and stop it and we just have to take it a day at a time.