The Deceptions of the Heart

I looked inside the depths of my heart and got lost in the motives behind my thoughts and actions
I dreamed that the altruistic values that God placed in me would express themselves pure through my talk, thoughts, actions, and aspirations.
Yet the deceptions of the heart is evil and when I looked in my heart I became entangled in my darkness and a despair that I could not grasp
Yet my desperation enveloped me and my thoughts consumed me with the flames of lust and the freezing blizzard of fear that I began to gasp for air that would not kill my lungs to breathe. How can hell exist inside a human heart, where the Kingdom of God has been planted?
I walked up to gates of the Lordship placed in my heart and I looked back at the dessert with its sporadic changes of temperature
I knocked...
And I was asked what is it that desire?
I have nothing I come into this world with nothing and I will leave out this world with nothing but
Nevertheless You, have been a Father to me through it all even when I did not know you. For You have called me and known me before the foundation of the earth before my mother and father conceived the notion to be together and You have also known me as I lived here on this earth
My first day and last day has been seen by You and You have kept watch over my years and carefully tended my head dear God
It is not enough to know You Lord but to Love You and give You back what You have given us that we may trust You and the abounding Love and grace