I've Fallen

I'm so tired now,

I cant even think, can't even feel, can't even breath.

Is this it? Is this truly the end for me?

Why can't I feel? Why can't I smile?

Why can't I just come to terms with it?

My mind spills out emptiness,

Everything is wasted, an intellectual pit of despair.

I've lost, my mind runs free, and this is what it chooses to do to me?

Scattered and messy, I fight to hold onto something dear but I've been beaten.

I'm so tired now,

But I can't seem to find my bed.

I'm completely lost, I should have never wandered so far from home.

I should have never fallen into temptation,

I should have never taken the time to be me,

I should have never rushed to be last the one there.

But, it always ends up like this.

It always seems to go up even if you want to stay down,

Even if you want to hold on to something temporary,

Even if you want to end the pain of existing.

Even if you want to blend in with your surroundings,

You always end up standing out.

I'm completely lost, its not hard to tell now.

It's not hard to see that I'm clueless,

That I've burned the pages of something written so long ago.

That I've come up with answers from the figment of my imagination. 

That everything I've ever created fades into a dull grey abyss.

I'm so tired now,

Where do I even stop,

I guess right now.

 

Reviews

[Ria Carol]

The poem drowns in sadness and a heart breaking pain...its wonderfully constructed...made me feel a rollercoaster of emotions...

[Balance]

Yeah I wanted something darker, and thank you I appreciate the comment, I hope it didn't make you feel too bad haha.

[Ria Carol]

No...im glad you can write...such wonderfully poems. :)