Addiction

If there is a god then smite me down

I have sinned, I am guilty.

I grew attached, I grew dependent,

I was addicted, I was obsessed,

She was cocaine, my medication,

Now I sit in pain facing the symptoms of withdrawal,

They have tried to help me seek rehabilitation,

I would rather stay in pain than be cured of this.

This pain is a reminder of who you are to me, How you still impact me,

I was wrong to trust you, wrong to believe in us.

You turned your back on me, and somehow I was the one who ended up with a knife through my spine,

But I forgave you, I forgive you,

You left without reason, you left without me,

No, you left without what was me, I am changed.

I am now without purpose, without my fix.