Ab Imo Pectore (From the Bottom of My Heart)A Poem by Trevor BusheyA rather candid look at what constitutes my melancholy psychology.
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With the candour of a child, In the recesses of my mind, Mem’ries compound, propound my life To consciousness , to inner strife. My tongue, it knows the taste of bile; Catharsis cures the man purblind. What’s purgèd from his viscera Is some kind of respite. But if he’s blithe to those contents, Is not so keen to analyse What satiates his appetite, Indulge some more some hackneyed fruit And put your body into throes And aches and pains familiar Before you plead the pain subsides, Unless you are a masochist. I knew one once; a sycophant Whose idea of pleasure was Quite perverse. He’d persuade naive Girls to participate in lewd Activities, though not against Their to-be wistful wills. A tryst Is a furtive affair. Lovers’ Motives are oft surreptitious. I ascertain the human heart To be so ensconced in matter, Flesh and bone, not for protection, But because it isn’t heeded. And not unlike Poe’s tell tale heart, It makes its presence known to he Who harbours guilt, who harbours more. Hark the scruples of your conscience. Abjure thoughts of concupiscence And listen to your moral muse. Allay suffering indigence And suffering in twos. II Having emerged from pubescence, Adolescence into adulthood, Having dealt with what was latent, Quiescent: by quelling the qualms Of my conscience, of my stomach By conferring with a laden Tongue the laments of decadence To a sympathetic sweetheart Who has absolved me of my sins; Regression connotes remission, Moral progression, in my instance, I have resolved to live a life Of keen ethical discernment, Of moral rationality; A kind of filial piety. I heretofore concede to Him. I sense a nascent rebellion When I’m induced to contemplate The motives for my wanton acts. My motive now is to placate The child in me who grew to hate His absent father, to pacify His ceaseless crying turned to spite. Paternal plight was, too, the blight Of my youth, and contemptible, But it was too of seminal Value. I’ve learned indelible Lessons about the nature of The common man and his psyche By incurring the cathartic Release of long repressed content. I’m not happy, but complacent With whom I have grown to become, With the milieu I’ve adapted To with a semblance of sin and Independence. Happiness Is a virtue I don’t possess. I’ve diagnosed my condition As amabilis melancholia. Ab imo pectore. © 2013 Trevor Bushey |
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1 Review Added on April 3, 2013 Last Updated on April 3, 2013 AuthorTrevor BusheyCanadaAboutA poetaster who primarily utilizes his capacity to write to pacify the pangs of his pragmatic conscience. Pitiful, practical, pithy. Will you appraise one of my poems? more..Writing
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