Your Own Worst Villain

yup.

Lost on the top of the mountain trying to move the s**t /

Hanging by a root off a cliff, about to lose my grip /

Life dances to your song, it resists the station though /

If you aren’t playing what it wants to hear, it’s blatant so /

That’s how I came to this rut, I need to climb out of /

Proposing to myself, what my next move is, like, what now huh? /

You can’t part the sea, you can’t push the mountain’s around you /

Everyone who should have been profound in your life kicked you down too /

Shouldn’t astound you, those of whom should’ve loved you most /

Didn’t give you loving growth, that’s when you happened to become a ghost /

Found that love and hate were both, the same thing sometimes called fear /

Lying alone in your room crying, some nights writing, trying to make it clear /

But this rainfall, this fog and thoughts sounding like a chainsaw with voices /

Annoyances, plus a clairvoyant kid, so your brain all tangled with choices /

And none of them you came up with, ego, shadow, more demons to battle /

Drag you through the gravel while you unravel, you now know you are fragile /

De-pres-sion, had me, trying to deep rest in, found myself with anxiety /

Flying awake violently, breaking outside of the matrix, not every eye can see /

I start to laugh because I don’t know what the truth is, lie to me, that’s ruthless /

Your whole life it seems is one great big lie, schizophrenic toothpick for the toothless /

The villain who has enough power to crash your roof in, pull your roots then find out it's you…..

Your own worst villain.