The Pain Seems to Never End.

 

 

 

I want to leave and never come back,

Cover my footprints and leave not a track

With the silence that follows me, I won't say bye

I am tired and lonely, please let me cry

Surrounded by people, though none who I can go to

I know their smiles are painfully untrue

Despite of it all, I hope you know

One day I'll rise, one day I will glow.

 

If you were mine- we'd be the best wine

And if you were mine- our fingers would intwine

Let's run away together, our feet light as a feather

No-one will hear us, no-one will know

No-one will fear us, so let's go slow

Our disappearance will not be missed

As they will surely not be pissed.

 

I want to leave and never come back,

Cover my footprints and leave not a track

With the silence that follows me, I won't say bye

I am tired and lonely, please let me cry.

 

Everybody is laughing in my face

As if I am some sort of disgrace

All I ever wanted was to make my family proud

Except I never was a member of the crowd

I followed my brother and looked up to my Mother

But we’ve grown up and things do change

Now they look at me as if I am strange.

 

I want to leave and never come back,

Cover my footprints and leave not a track

With the silence that follows me, I won't say bye

I am tired and lonely, I just want to die.

 

I’m sixteen and I know what I want to do;

Surrounded by friends who do not have a clue

Surrounded by family who fail to encourage

So I’ve learned to pick myself up and gather the courage

Learn the things I want to learn, do the things I want to do

Surely soon, their eyes will open too

I taught myself to not care what they think

Even when they say I need a shrink

They don’t know who I am

Hah, as if they even give a damn

‘Cause they chuck me around like I’m loose change

And throw me around as if they’re in range.

 

I want to leave and never come back,

Cover my footprints and leave not a track

With the silence that follows me, I won't say bye

I am tired and lonely, I just want to cry.

 

 

 

 

 

MetBySunlight.

Author's Note

Same old, same old.

Reviews

[Jack Isaac]

The problem with running off into the unknown is that it's unknown. Those that go out there without a diploma come back -- they always come back -- and the reprise in your poem is a metaphor that always comes back. Brilliant! This poem of pain is painless to read.

It is possible to leave and never come back once one has a diploma, and a career. So, "They don’t know who I am" but they will, in your career they will! And yes, your poem explains all of that so well. Sure, that message is hidden though plain as day "One day I'll rise, one day I will glow." Then again, you glow now in poetry :) --watch the spelling errors that interfere with the flow -- nice write!

[Coyote Poetry]

Being young is a hard time. At eighteen I joined the Army. I saw 40 countries and did many good and bad things. Time will come for you to be free. I told my four children. Travel, test life and have fun before working till death. Time will go by quickly. Today I wished I kept in contact with good friends. A powerful poem. Open the door to many good questions. A outstanding poem.
Coyote

[Leslie Philibert]

I´m impressed how well you write for such a young person.Good work.They chuck
me around like I`m loose change....is a great line.It´s the reason I enjoy reading work from young poets.Keep at it.

[R J Askew]

Nah, this is fresh paint. I've read loads of poems about love/pain/love/pain. I now think that pain is as much part of life as breathing. That does not mean we are in it all the time. But not to experience pain at some point wld be very odd. Maybe the word alive is not enough, we are also often alove and apain. Maybe we can be all three at the same time. I think this is a lovely poem because it is intelligent, well executed and moving. I like the refrain and the repeats of bye/cry/bye/cry/bye/die/bye/cry are strong, esp the hammered home bye/die. You work the emotional aspect well. Sooooo many are tired and lonely and not just at 16. Alive, alove, apain, alone, again. You also nail the alienation from family and friends very well. I am sure many who have rich inner lives but who don't have the luck to be social naturals feel exactly as you describe. The desire to escape with a kindred soul is moving. There is hope there. Such a couple of escapees wld be natural love birds. I like the way you see through the smiles of the shallow. But the best part for me is the poetic dab near the end, the way change/strange recurs in change/range which produces this great line, 'Cause they chuck me around like I'm loose change.' The reason i like that so much is that you manage to combine what is a sort of modern though within a formal rhyme. I think the one reinforces the other. A lot of modern writers hate rhyme, but I am not one of them. You use rhyme and repetition in a very effective way. Well done!!! I also smile because of the title and the length of the poem. The poem is long but ironically it is not a pain to read and so we actually don't want it to end because we are enjoying your craft!