My Tormentors of the Night

Due to Sexual, physical, verbal, mental, and Spiritual abuse, I have a hard time sleeping due to dreams that come about, in which I am living the horror, one way or the other, and at times, I go crazy

The dark comes about, as a thief.

Bringing about much terror 

and grief.

The moon shines bright, 

into the night, 

while the stars hover about.

The Prince of Darkness, lurks

behind trees, looking

into houses.

Satan is his name, and he

roams about,

seeking whom to devour.

His servants are those,

that fell from heaven above,

called Demons or Fallen Angels.

These go about, bringing 

back reports to him, of 

all those he seeks to DESTROY.

And so each night, as I 

ready myself to bed, I pray

to God, to keep them at bay.

I put on christian music,

and pray with my daughter

and lay in bed, awaiting,

for slumber to come

and help close my eyes.

Yet, deep within my 

heart starts racing,

in anticipation 

of what is to come.

Once asleep, my mind

is free, and then they come

and torment me.

For each dream, I have

tends to reflect abuse

in any form and shape.

And I struggle to open

up my eyes and leave

the terror behind.

Yet, they fight to keep me there,

and keep my mouth shut as well.

For if allowed, and I pray

out loud, they know what

will come about.

For the times, I manage to utter,

Jesus, a Light so bright

fills this space, and they

are forced to leave.

Not all nights are bad,

yet at times, they tend to

come more than once a week.

And take away my beauty sleep.

For you see, once I was set free,

they fought to stay about, but

God kicked them out of my life,

and they are hoping 

I lose faith, and or

give up, to come back, 

and be pals with me

once again.

Yet, this time, and all times,

I will no longer pay them

heed, nor let them

overcome my mind.

For in Him, I have 

overcome much,

and even though

I fear the night,

He has never left

my side.

And in those moments of

despair, He still 

is there.

My tormentors, mess with me

day in and day out.

And as I am weak, and imperfect,

I realize, that alone,

I could fall, back 

into that pit.

Yet, God will never Leave 

my side, and they cannot

change my heart, for He 

is my EVERYTHING.

My tormentors of the night,

will never stop coming,

but I will never give up

fighting in HIS name.

And will look forward

to that day, in which,

they can not HAUNT me

anymore.

For now, I battle each night,

and get little sleep,

yet, I know,

I am not alone.

Even if I fall

in fear, I will never

GIVE up.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I liked the personal places and thoughts shared dear Maria.
"I am not alone.
Even if I fall
in fear, I will never
GIVE up."
I agree with the above lines. We never walk alone. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[Maria]

Thank you Mr. Coyote, once again, I am humbled by your words and review. I love how you bring about meaning and perspective in a positive way.

[Coyote Poetry]

Struggle make us wiser and stronger. You are welcome Maria.

[barleygirl]

This is an artful tug-of-war between the forces of good & evil. I can feel the push-and-pull all the way. Your writing has been such a gift to me. It amazes me how many similarities in our childhood abuse & the way it's impacted us. I also cannot sleep more than an hour or two at a time. I also pray & thank God as I lay in bed trying to tamp down my anxiety. I just wrote & posted a little story about my childhood abuse (Dawn of Fury) -- I have to thank you for helping me to open up more & dig up those buried details. The uninhibited way you write about your abuse helped me all along the way, as I reminded myself to share more deeply about this topic than I have ever done before. Your poems feel like a celebration whereas your stories feel like an outpouring -- both good ways to deliver your various thoughts & feelings (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Satvika : )]

Absolutely loved this ❤
So personal and emotional! Great work.. : )

[Satvika : )]

And I just wanted to say, you're a strong beautiful women. So keep your head up high

[Maria]

Wow, am humbled by your words of encouragement. Thank you. Been facing new health challenges with my dad and daughter that have been overwhelming me and am trying to keep my head up vs down. Thanks again.

[duff]

Nightmares and sleep issues can be crippling. Being an insomniac I can relate to some of that It really does take hold. The intensity in this one boils Maria. Gripping work and keep it up!

[Maria]

Thank you my friend. Very true indeed. Nightmares come and go. Appreciate your feedback as usual.amd hope you are well. Tale care Duff

[duff]

You are so welcome my friend

[Farrell MacLachlin]

Haunting write Maria. I can imagine so vividly, you playing Christian music to keep the demons at bay. Enjoyed it from beginning to end.

[Maria]

Wow, thanks, truly appreciate your words as well. And appreciate your review of course as well. I am beyond humbled once more, for such encouraging words. So thank you Mr. Farrell, and good day to you.