Ranting

Truly just ranting from my mind, and trying to take off some stress.

July is almost over, and after that,

the year will be coming to another end.

So much is different, so much has changed.

The weather is cold and lots of rain.

Some fruits are in season, while others have moved on.

Life is the same, non stop chatter, traffic

and yells, as everyone rushes, to head on home

to their loved ones there.

Work, school, kids, food, and so much more on my mind.

To leave, or quit, or just move on.

What to do, and where to go?

A new passion has come, and its still

on my mind, but have not gotten, to it quite yet.

A bakery? Sure why not?

Am a hell of  a baker, and you know that well.

But not just an ordinary bakery as most normally 

are, but one in which invention would be the key.

Thoughts of future endeavors, and my child, is longing

to become an adult.

How fast she grew, from a babe to her teenager self.

I love her the same, or perhaps even more.

Yet, what to do, once she moves on with her life?

Alone, I do not want to be, once the time comes.

Who would want to be with me?

And give me that longing companionship?

For more children, I have always wanted,

yet, up till now, I have kept to myself.

Waiting on Love to show up my door?

Why maybe so, but many have stated to not go out

and look for it, but rather to sit and wait for it.

To come up the path and knock on the door, and to

keep that flame wide awake.  Many decisions, I must make, 

before this year finishes, in regards to the future.

So, for now, I am simply letting it out,

and hope to make sense of it all,

day in and day out.

The night approaches, and I am awaiting,

to see, if any would come to my door,

but alas, the waiting, is something I tire,

and work on my patience, is wearing me thin.

But in spite of the downfalls, and aches, I cannot give up

and will go on.  One way or the other, I must make it in life,

to at least, give my daughter, a better future for her life.

And here my rant, of things shall end, and perhaps another day, I will continue writing some more.