Nonsense from the mindA Poem by Mariajust really random stuff.
Its raining outside and I am sitting
here in my small cubicle. The drops of rain run down the window I have behind me. The sky is grey and full of many clouds and my daughter is at home with a cough. I do not mind sitting here, really I do not but at times I want to run. The cars in the parking lot are being washed of all dust and grime and getting clean for free. And I am sitting here wondering how in the world will I get home today. For you see I am without a car and have been since 2013. So my moving around is very limited to my aging father, taxi man and any helpful soul that does not mind giving me a ride home. I must be dialing and or fetching leads, yet there are not many and too many people here. So I get disheartened and want to just get up and leave. Yet than I remember that I am not alone. So I must find renewed motivation within me and do my best to finish my shift. Rain has stopped but sky still grey and cloudy. Tis the rainy season we are in right now and it bugs my allergies. I get that we have to learn to work and make a living for ourselves yet how come all that schooling never said how tough it be once we got out. This is so repetitive and I feel that I could be doing so much more and I want to do more than just sit here in front of this computer. Is there more out there than this life I have come to know. Could be I am unsure. So my mind feels a bit muddle today and my mood is quiet and retracted. I want to be sleeping in my bed. But alas here I am since 6am in the morning. I hate feeling this way I do, yet many others are at home resting and sleeping in and getting time to spend with their families. Of course home no longer means the same to me since my mom no longer is here. Yet my daughter whom I love to death still lives at home and needs me still or so she says and I must do my best to give her the chance I never had to make a bigger imprint within this world. And so for now I have no care for punctuation marks or grammatical rules. So pardon if this seems to run without a pace cause I really have no care. The ceiling above my head matches the sky outside. Grey and dull and I hate the air conditioner since it bugs my allergies. The computer is black and keyboard too as is the mouse. My desk is white with a blue pastel color on the sides... My chair is a lime green and the worst chair ever as my back and butt hurt so much I really just want to be outside in the rain and have no care in the world but I cannot do this yet. So here I come to put my random thoughts down on this screen for all to see and for all to read. My mind is a machine that never stops processing. I feel as if I am losing my humanity as words come through and all I do is keep on typing as they come. So I wish you all a good afternoon or evening depending on where you are within this world that is groaning in pain as we lay waste to all of nature. And I will see if I am able to find that which I am needing at this time to finish my work and make it through the rest of my shift and not feel so gloom. © 2017 MariaFeatured Review
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StatsAuthorMariaFairfax, VAAboutI write from my heart, soul and mind. Sharing both past and present trials, that I have faced and or am facing. I believe strongly in God and the Bible, yet I respect everyone's views. I myself am no.. more..Writing
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