Believe in yourself!

Being told to believe and trust and be more confident, as I struggle to do what I must, but the emotion, simply at times leaves.

You have potential and the skills needed to do your job!

Be confident, believe in yourself!

We believe in you, and know you can do it!

Just believe in yourself!

You would not be here, if you could not do this,

Trust in your gut and use your head!

You are very skilled and talented!

Be confident, and believe in yourself!

I am told this almost on a daily bases,

and I know what they say is nothing more 

than the truth.

Yet for some reason, I find myself doubtful and wonder

if it really is so?

My job in itself is really easy, either I dial out 

or answer inbound calls.  

Follow a script, and try and persuade the student 

to attend this university.

Truly, its not a complicated thing and anyone could do this.

My tone of voice, they say, is flat, no emotion, and too muffled.

I must sound more excited and happy. Do not get me wrong, I love my job, I do!

Yet, from time to time, either grief washes over me, and or

I simply, lose the emotion of doing the same thing,

repeatedly each day.  

My ratings are not the best, or the lowest yet, but still, I find myself struggling to meet the goals they request!

Believe in yourself, we believe in you!

Trust yourself and do not hesitate on any call.

You can do this, we know you can!

Yet, I still, seem to find myself in this space,

in which, I face old accusers, pointing my way and 

snickering,  as I stumble and fall, to the ground.

Your stupid, your head is full of S**t!  

You are nothing, and you will never get anywhere in life!

And my soul fights and struggles, to get me out of this place, in order to come out into the light and simply trust, not in myself, but in God.

And so, in the end, as my bosses and leaders keep on struggling to find out, how to help me, I look to God and plead in silence, to quiet the voices from mine enemies,

that for years filled my head with lies, that had tormented my soul and twisted my heart.

I am no better than you or you, but we all have skills, either learned or given from time of birth, that we can use for good or bad.

I know this, yet I still doubt myself.

So, for now I will continue to push

myself into believing all that God says of me, 

and work on getting rid of these past tormentors, that 

no longer should have a hold in my life.

Author's Note

Input welcomed.

Reviews

[Namyh]

Maria - We need our personal tormentors. They are what we resist against and overcome with action one by one, and in so doing develop the mental strength and belief that we can conquer all of them. Ironic that first we make the belief and then the belief starts remaking us. God's human beings! You gotta luv 'me. Nice work Maria. Namyh

[Maria]

Interesting perspective and thank you.

[rowan.taylorrr]

this is really up beat and encouraging I really like it

[Writer at last! Sky ~]

Yes a belive in self and believe in God can simply work wonder in one's life. Nice poem :)

[Maria]

Thank you Sky, and very true indeed.

[Writer at last! Sky ~]

Your most welcome friend :)

[Nashville]

so many times I feel this way. I like to think..its not whether you win or lose..just finish.

[Maria]

Very true.