Letting go

This is based on someone that is somewhat still in my life, but we never really got into any type of relationship yet he would enjoy seeing my reaction each time he drew near

Your eyes, are so deep and so wide,

as much as I want, I cannot forget

the first time we ever met, by chance, perhaps?

You were so erect and standing tall, full of much pride

for what you represent. And not only was I the only

one to see how sensual of a man you are.

As you spoke and I heard your voice, I barely managed

to not fall from my seat, for it was so enchanting and rich.

And try as I might, I made it seem as if nothing had happened 

and you had not affected me.

Now that I have found someone else, who seems to be more

interested in me, I wonder, should I waste my time in you?

For alas, as hard as I tried, you saw just how nervous

I would get with having you near.

And each time, I would want to say , Good morning, my tongue

would twist and stubbornly stay put.

My heart races a thousand miles and your smell, is so enticing.

You are a charmer, that is for sure. I could see how you

would move about, charming a girl or three.

Why would I even waste my time, for you were in your own

special place, and knowingly handsome to all. You can have whomever you like, in bed with you by this night.

And even if at times, I would dream, what if it were me, he desired?  I knew deep within, that it would never matter.

For you keep your heart shut in all these matters.

And when I finally found the courage to look into your eyes, my mind would wonder away, and my body would grow hot.

For your hands, so full of grace, would play up my arm, as an embrace.  And I could see how you would dwell,

into my soul and seek me there.

For almost a year or more or so, I fought with myself to forget you not.  Yet even when we talked it be so simple, that you made sure to keep matters so simple.

I could feel your gaze, if I would talk to any other, and as piercing as they were, I would not turn hither.

And in the end, I finally understood, you are just like those.

that become players, in matters of the heart.

Yes, indeed! you are very attractive, yet your heart, is not up to more games, but you keep building a wall, up so high;

I wonder, how can you live like that?

Finally the day came about, that I finally could push you from my heart; my thoughts perhaps not, but today you no longer affect me as you did before.

I wish you the best, in what you seek, as I go my 

way and seek my own.

Reviews

[Jibey]

I really enjoyed reading this. The discursive style was appropriate to the reflective nature of the writing.

Ah, how well you expose the weakness of the male species, with our tendency to hunt for trophies.

Glad you are safe and settled and can look back with no regrets.

[Maria]

Thank you so much for your input. Much appreciated.

[Carol Cashes]

Smart girl! Chemistry is a heady perfume, but it won't last. You described it perfectly.

[Maria]

Thanks. Appreciate your input.

[duff]

A scenario I think a lot of people can relate to. There's seem to be a person that we connect with but are stuck in the same gear for whatever reason. Is it the typical chase me game? And then oops, too late. Along comes someone else. Their loss. I like it Maria. Nice job!

[Maria]

Thank you Duff. Glad you enjoyed it

[duff]

You bet and I definitely did

[Donyay Thomas]

I like it. It's hard to let someone go but eventually you can.

[Maria]

appreciate your input. Thanks and love your writing as well.

[Donyay Thomas]

Thank you It means a lot

[Maria]

sure thing. :)

[rowan.taylorrr]

i really like this piece. i like the emotion in it and the way it makes me feel- well written !

[Maria]

Thanks for reading and reviewing.