Death (REvised)

My mother recently passed away after a 5 year battle with Neuroendocrine Pancreatic Cancer Stage IV. I was able to be with her during most of her battle, and the hardest part was last year.

You were taken away, without a moments notice,

Death called you by name,

And off you went into the heavens

To return no more.

It took some time, before Death came for you,

And you were ready, by the door.

Away you went, into his arms

onward to a heavenly realm.

I will not forget how you looked for me,

in the midst of your last breath,

as Death awaited for our 

final goodbyes, you stretched out,

grasping my arm.

I pulled you close to my chest, and with one

last look, into my eyes,

You took your final breath.

I cannot lie and say it did not hurt,

for even if we knew, that your time

was near, the pain, will always be there.

My heart broke into a million of pieces,

my soul cried out, and in the end, I gave way

and told you to go, for you had 

won your reward.

Death is not to be played, yet in this case,

we knew, you had grown tired of fighting.

So we left your window opened,

for Death to come and take you home.

Even if you are no longer here, your presence

remains forever more 

within our hearts and souls.

You fought hard and long and

made sure to spend time with us.

I hate that you had to go, and suffer

before doing so, yet now at least 

you rest, at Heavens Gates, with

God alone.

I miss you dearly, my heart aches for your 

smell, touch, and voice.

Its been five months since you left this earth

to go with Death to heavens gates.

I will always Love you, no matter what,

and hope to live,

as you did so and bring some peace and joy

to all that miss you so, for you were dear.

And now I await, for my turn

when Death comes calling 

me to go on home.

Yet for now, I will live some more,

and hope to see you at 

heavens gates, when my own time 

comes to leave this earth.

Rest in peace, and know that we

are assured that you no longer

suffer or are in pain.

And that alone, brings about 

some peace, within the midst of 

our own pain.

Author's Note

Revised this poem to enter the Death as a Promise contest.

Reviews

[Carol Cashes]

I'm so sorry that your mother's passing was fraught with pain and the seeming unfairness of the disease. My own mother is facing a similar death and her dignity and acceptance has made this time easier for me. This was both sad and wonderful. Good job.

[Maria]

Thanks truly appreciate your words, and only God alone, can take one through the grieving process, and provide peace beyond what we know on this earth. I continue to pray for you and your family as well.

[Coyote Poetry]

I'm sorry for your lost. Old lost or new. A parent is missed forever. Your words allowed the reader to know a kind woman. Thank you Maria for sharing the powerful thoughts and poetry.
Coyote

[BGsnowy]

Wow, this is so well written. I am very sorry for your loss and hope you will be able to stay strong. I wish only the best for you and your daughter.

[Maria]

Thank you. Its been like walking through an array of emotions but in the end, am cherishing each memory made with my mom.

[duff]

First off I'm sorry for your loss. This gave me goose bumps. The level of emotion you convey is something I can relate to. I remember spending nights in ICU for my grandfather who was having kidney failure. He was on dialysis for years. I hope in writing you can find some healing. A touching piece that is nicely done.

[Maria]

Thank you very much for your kind words and input. Yes, right now I am struggling to grieve, not sure, if there is a right way to, or not and dealing with the emptiness of her not being here physically present. She fought long and hard to overcome the cancer, yet in the end, her body could not take it any longer.

[duff]

You're welcome. It's very brave to write about it. My best wishes:)