A Letter For My Soldier

         I am in love with a man in which i don't deserve. i wish i could tell him the mistakes i've made while he's been away.

 

 Nothing i did was worth it. My love for him is eternal and the visions of our marriage keep flashing in my head almost

 

 as if to remind me. He's out in the world changing lives and contributing to his own. i've met someone whom no one

 

else can remotely compare. He's free but he's detained. He's strong but he is weak. His walls are up but he lets you in.

 

 His past is painful but you endure it with him. Why am I doing this? Why am i so scared to be dedicated to the love of

 

 my life? Fear becomes me. My every waking moment i am breaking. If i am not right with myself then how can i be

 

right with other people? How could i live with myself knowing i am a mold of everything everyone wants me to be? My

 

 actions prove i am selfish. I based my mistakes on what i was feeling at the time? Do i love this other man? Of course

 

 not. Then why do i say i do? For attention. I crave attention. And as horrid as that sounds, it's true. I am not proud of

 

 it but i have come to terms with it and if i want things to change i have to change them myself.

 

 

        My darling Navy man,

 

i've made mistakes. Terrible, indescribable mistakes. But you are mine and i am yours. I shall love you until our dying

 

day.

Reviews

[Delmar Cooper]

Glad she finally made a decision. Some real action can proceed from a moment of decision. Will there be some in later installments?