I almost

I've come close to giving up again 

My lungs couldn't swallow the air 

Eyes that wouldn't stop running 

I've come close to letting go again 

But then I remembered the promise I made 

If it weren't for all those people 

It would've been broken long ago 

I would've given up on myself 

I almost killed myself again 

Took the blade to my skin 

I didn't want to 

But the numbness was suffocating 

I had to feel something

I watched it, 

The red tears fell 

Staining my skin with streaks of red 

Oh how it cried 

I shouldn't have hurt it 

I smothered it's tears 

So no one could see it cry 

I didn't want to see 

The pain I caused 

Not when I could feel finally 

It didn't last long I'll admit 

But I didn't do it again 

Because the guilt of it sank in 

So I curled up in my blankets 

I was so cold 

The night changed to dawn 

When I heard my alarm clock scream 

I almost ran away again 

Retreating deep inside But they were depending on me 

I had to be their strength 

I had no room to be weak

Reviews

[PlantGluer]

Keep fighting, It always get's better. All you have to do is try, you'll get there eventually, I promise.

[Meraki]

I know :) thank you