The Painted Corner

I'm not sure how to describe this one. Written out of hurt in a moment of great stress and frustration.

09/18/11

 

In the end

Everyone's a quitter,

Begging for forgiveness,

Trying to forget her.

How could it be

That once again it's all a lie?

All this insanity

Has to be the cruelest kind.

'N everywhere I go

It's like a whisper,

Gives me shivers,

And I quiver,

Quaking that I am forsaken

And undelivered,

No faith given

And all taken.

And here it is I'm underground,

When I could've sworn

I was wide-eyed and awake.

Between the thoughts and the stage,

Where I act okay,

It's more than I can take!

I am not okay!

I am not alright!

While you sleep, eyes shut tight,

I am awake,

Painted in this corner's got me up all night!

I turn the light off,

Act unoffeneded and uneffected,

Pretending I have no ego,

Nevermind how rejected

You have made me feel!

Dejected - as if ever I've neglected you!

How could you say I'll just leave?

Have you not heard me?

'N what all I've been through?!

You may as well say

I've no honor and slap me in the face!

Such words cannot be taken back,

Just as some things and moments cannot be replaced!

How DARE you not make it clear

From the get-go this is how you feel?!

Just something else I cannot change?

Another bill I cannot pay?

Nor prove,

No matter what I do?

Someone else's debt

Is now mine, once again, thanks to you!

And I cannot pay

From a hamster's cage!

Could you?!

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[patricia]

this was realy good, especially about hiding the bruised ego, and all the emotional strains and anxieties, the healthy anger and the weariness of another dissapointment. I loved the..How Dare you not make it clear...that's always what hurts the most, i think. and yet when i am guilty of it myself, like knowing deep down if it was right or not, and all the other warning signals i ignore, when i want what i want. you got my head a rolling girl! brilliant stuff. bye for now.

[Just Cat]

A highly emotionaly charged piece, powerful and full of messages.
Nice work
Keep it up.

[Neva Flores Smith - Cha..]

Don't paint me in the corner is one of my favorite sayings. Sometimes we find we paint our own-selves into a corner before we know it. Also, the I'm fine part.....my mother used to tell me that I would say I was fine even if I had a leg and a arm hanging off my body at weird angles....I love this piece, and I am so sorry it took me all this time to read it. I apologize.