Therein

See? I flub verbal.

09/24/13

 

I am sorry if the expression of my fears

Heightened your own.

I did not mean to validate or invalidate.

 

I told you I love you,

Which I do,

To set you free -

Never as coin or chain.

 

As I myself am not now ready to commit,

I am not opposed to such

If and when the time comes.

 

I fear you are, and was trying to say so.

That is all.

 

I do think since it's not been pointed out you've been aglow,

You still think maybe you can find someone better for you than me,

By which you keep looking, and to me are a contradiction.

 

If you've not seen it, or it has been a while,

You really should review Stardust.

Perhaps while recovering?

 

I speak of self out of being and staying true.

Afterall, it is my direct connection to Source

By which I shine!

 

You are a switch by which the volume can grow,

But you are not the source.

 

It does trouble me that no matter how far we've come

You still carry your own light as a burden.

 

I discuss fear to release it rather than give into it.

I do not find the realization of fears an unavoidable inevitability.

 

As for me not being "cut-out",

I did not mean all-together.

I mean in the traditional sense,

That depending on what someone wants from me

Regarding an "us"

There will need be further discussion

And maybe much compromise.

 

Afterall, I know what I do and do not want,

And though it is not always easy for me,

I will usually find a way to express it.

 

I'll not have you, nor anyone

Making me wrong for that

Anymore.

 

And therein lies my shine!

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[kublakhan27]

Poetry does not get much more real or heartfelt than this...as with all of your works, I can just feel the tangle of emotions here: love, fear, confusion, and more...the repetition also plays a big part in getting your feelings across...the "volume" couplet I thought was brilliant, and maybe I'm wrong but I detect a slight hint of frustration in the claim that you "usually" find a way to express it...if that is the case, I'm sure you'll find your expression somewhere along the way as long as you keep writing...your poetry will help you find the way, I truly believe that.

[Melobldnfr]

Yes. You hear me and read me very well. Xo. The frustration lies in that I write better than I speak, and how others at times - likely both wittingly and unwittingly - try to squash or stifle me when I wish to express. Xo.

[kublakhan27]

I know just how you feel...verbal interaction is not my strong suit, in fact, it can be a real nightmare at times, and that's why I write, I'd go insane if I didn't haha I know it's tough dealing with people though, no doubt about that, I wish I had an answer but I can only sympathize and encourage you to keep writing...if you write enough, you may learn to translate those feelings to conversation somewhere along the way, at least that's what I hope for myself...xo

[jacob erin-cilberto]

wow this is good and so relatable..

here i have been..in relationships where i held back, but just as much my partner did too...because they were still carrying the baggage...

it's tough to let go sometimes....and trust.

nicely penned.