Chapter four: If I told you i'd have to eat you (Part III)

It's all fun and games until it turns into lies and manipulation

I stalked the halls in search of prey; I couldn’t rule out any student. Especially not my friends; if it was easy for me to keep my secret from them, then they could easily do the same. I was quite suspicious of Kath to be honest. I never got to the bottom of what she was talking about the night I found out that I too was a vicious beast. She mentioned that a guy named Bow would know if anything of that nature was going down.
        Was he like me? ...
        ... Was Kath like me?
Maybe she suggested it because he maybe Alpha and I seeing him might be a trap. Maybe they don’t like lone souls like me lingering around. Maybe he is in search of a mate; though I had no intention of becoming anyone’s mate let alone join a pack or a circle of Soul Bearers with anyone else.
        I’ve heard of them and seen pictures in nanna’s bible; of packs Wolf Soul Bearers and different groups of species all together like normal animals would in the wild. There were even circles of Soul Bearers that contained every animal under the sun, though I find this stupid and idiotic not to mention dangerous because Soul Hunters search for that sort of thing. A bear, wolf, bird, horse, tiger, mouse all mingling in one group; not to mention their supernatural proportion but you wouldn’t never find animals like that all hanging together or a tiger and a giraffe in America, in the wild. I thought that was the whole reason Soul Bearers fled to different edges of the world so we blended into our surroundings and lived in our soul’s natural environment. I guess I should have the urge to find a pack and settle down, I mean I was part of a pack when I was little, but after my parents were murdered my nanna took me from them for my own safely -or so she says. My nanna never said anything about her and her past though she is my mother’s mother she must be a Soul Bearer though she never mentions it. I sometimes wonder if she has her sight or maybe just too old to risk injury whilst shedding. I envy her normalness if that is the case, I would rather not see my soul not be one with it, to find what it means to be blind to be truly human.
     “Watch where you’re going” I snap as I came head on with someone I which I hadn’t, though if I’d realised earlier who it was I probably wouldn’t have said those words and just ran in the other direction. I looked into his eyes and saw something I hadn’t seen in him before, a heart. He grabbed my wrist and locked me in his gaze, but I wouldn’t fall for it I didn’t before and I won’t now. If anything I am more resilient to his charm, I mean I have to be I can’t let my emotions get in the way of getting the job done.
     “Excuse me” I said walking past him, he let me go without a fight. I got half way down the hall before I heard him storming towards me.
     “Hey!” he yelled making his way towards me, God he’s an idiot. Does he want everyone to know we actually know each other!
     “What!” I snapped in his face, he stopped in his track about a metre away from me.
     “What’s your problem?!” he yells like he has no idea how awkward and tense it is ever since he saved me.
     “Oh so now I’m the one with the problem” I say with just as much frustration as before but encouraging him to lower is voice.
     “Yes, well you are the problem and it’s not fun anymore, it’s now my problem” he said with a sigh still pissed but getting the hint that I didn’t want to shout this to the whole school, kids around us stop standing and staring they continued on their way seeing that there wasn’t much too see.
     “Well I’m sorry the little immature boy isn’t enjoying his little immature game...” I said disgusted in him. “...so sorry I am such a bother if I am such a problem then why didn’t you just let me drown!” I said throwing my arms out to the side in annoyance. He stormed towards me, and I waited for a scream a yell of streaming insults. I stood there braced ready for the punch, but when he reached me he grabbed my face in his hand and leant in towards me. A spark ran through me and I was intoxicated at the feeling of his lips against mine; in a trance I kissed him back.
     “Because I love you” He whispered departing my lips, a tear escaping my eyes. I did the only thing I swore I’d never do; fall in love with Vance Xavier. So what did I do then? I did the only thing I’m good at doing, running away. I am not strong, I could never do this on my own, I’m an adolescent, hormonal train wreck, and I Trixy Colman, am weak. I continue to run around the school, I eventually busted out the doors and lied down on a bench.
     “What am I doing?” I asked myself, I haven’t waged one class yet, and I’m most certainly not going to start now just because of Vance and my stupid emotions. I got up off the bench and made my way through the school once more, the bell will go for the end of lunch soon so I better get to the cafeteria fast if I want to get something to eat.
     “Hey where you been” Icy mumbled while chowing down on a some well I actually have no idea what it was, but she seemed to be enjoying it.
     “Hey are you ok?” Liz asks realising that I wasn’t.
     “Yeah I’m fine, just tired” I answered forcing a smile and slumping down next to Kath "I wasn’t even hungry.
     “Hey what’s the time?” Kath asked while we all sat there off in our own little worlds.
     “Umm” Liz answered while she was rummaging through her bag from her phone.
     “Time for us to go” Icy said looking at her watch. I smiled, on the verge of laughter but stoped myself for I had no right as a human being to laugh enough to feel happiness. Especially here while I sit across from one of my best friends and she doesn’t even know her dad’s dying and I’m the one who caused his life to end so abruptly. I slowly and lazily got out of the seat and Icy smacked my bum like I was a horse.
     “Cheer up grumpy” she said with a smile, she put her arm around my waist and hurried my along. The bell rang loud as we approached our lockers which were in a row, for convenience. It wasn’t pure luck it by the way, it just so happens that when your best friend mum is dating the principal it comes with advantages.