It Feels Selfish

I never thought that heart ache
Could come while you're in love
Only thought it followed heart break
Not two hearts as one

I never thought missing someone...
I'd ever feel this pain
Never thought that having someone
Could make me feel this way

And although I know you love me
And that you're missing me too
I feel such great sadness
When I'm thinking about you

I knew this wouldn't be easy
But I wanted you anyway
And even though I'm crying now
I want you just the same

It's not so much your touch
That my cold skin craves
I miss your voice, your laughter
Things others dare forsake

I miss you in the morning
When I don't hear my name
I miss you in the evening
But neither one is for the blame

I miss your stupid jokes
And I miss your naughty texts
I miss knowing when you'll be here
When I can kiss you next

I hate that you can't stay here
I hate your stupid job
But I'd love your future with me
Even if our distance is at odds

I hate the way that I can't stand
That you can't stand your life
That right now your cold and miserable
And I can't make it right

I hate that I am helpless
As I stand by your side
But there's nowhere else id rather be
If I said otherwise, I lied

And I just love you so damn much
That I hate how selfish I feel
That while you're dedicating to higher things
I just sit here and reel

Sometimes i think I'm crazy
And that you'll come back and leave
That maybe you can't do it
Or that you're not really missing me

Through no fault of your own
I know it's just my anxiety
It just makes me so goddamn sad
Every time you have to leave