Everything I'll Never Say To You

The first time you hurt me 
Was when I realized that I loved you
 I forgave you and never looked back  
I would have ripped out my heart for you

The second time you hurt me 
Was when I learned I couldn’t trust you
 But I really thought I needed you 
I couldn’t be without you

The number of times you hurt me 
Begin to blur and I’ve lost count 
I gave you my heart, my life 
I sold my soul for just one year with you

The last time you hurt me 
Was when I learned you don’t deserve me 
You don’t deserve the love that grew inside me 
And now in her bed sleeps beside me

Those ears, that nose, her smile 
By blood she’s yours, there’s no denying 
But she deserves the world 
And you aren’t even trying

I knew that you were leaving
 I swallowed my pride and faced the chance 
You’d disappoint me, you’d write her off 
For us, you’d never come back

I’m more angry with myself 
For right now she sleeps while I am crying 
For letting someone like you 
Get away with all your lying

You’ve hidden away half of her family 
With the secret she exists 
You’ve ripped a part from my soul 
That for healing, it resists

And the saddest part about it all
 Is you don’t stand a chance
 Of ever looking in the mirror 
And seeing that coward of a man

Something inside you is different 
Someone I have never known 
And for the first time I am grateful 
That you have your way back home

You can’t send me a penny
 For the life this little girl needs 
You can’t tell a soul 
For the lies you’re buried underneath

There are no second chances 
For a man who lives off luck 
But MY daughter will be loved 
The way that I was taught

I may not be anything to you  
But she deserved a chance 
And the choices you’ve made, you’ve dug your grave 
And I’m not coming back

My heart it shatters completely 
You have broken my every bone 
With the weight of your decisions 
I gave up my life, my heart, my home

So while you spend your days partying 
With your friends that you can’t trust 
And you bare the burden of being a father 
Chasing after some cheap lust

Just now that you’re the ammo 
To the life I now choose to lead 
The life that I’ll live for our child 
And you can watch me succeed

I may be broken and lost 
But I am closer than I’ve ever been 
To finding the strength to tell you 
I’ll never look at you again

For everything you’ve taught me 
In the mistreatment I’ve endured
 It’s that I am stronger and I am wiser 
And it’s about time I’ve learned

You may have taken me for granted 
And I fell victim to every play 
But know that your heart will remain empty 
No matter where you lay