The Feels

I lie in a bed that only sleeps one
And it seems I can't feel the defeat
I constantly awaken to the morning sun
Which is all that gives my body heat

I thought this would feel much more lonely
Without your dresser in my room
But atleast now when I do the laundry
In the baskets it does not sit and loom

I imagined I'd be much sadder
For breaking my best friends heart
I thought you'd be much madder
For me wanting a fresh new start

Is it weird it's as though you've never been here
And the two years seem to fade in a week
And my brain and my body does wander
But my heart and my mouth dare not speak

It's strange how I felt something missing with you
When I'd lie awake all night in our room
With a sense of misery and doom
And let the anger and resentment stew

It's not that you weren't wonderful
You just weren't made for me
And if met in another lifetime
Friends I hope we'd be

I don't know why I feel guilty
When I was honest, true, and kind
It just hadnt really hit me
The end of our time

So farewell for now sweet boy
Please, my face, don't let it haunt
For this isn't about the heart ache
It's about the lessons taught