Moments

Do you remember what it felt like

when you were but a child

and you'd meet a cute boy
and try your hardest not to smile

You'd tell everyone you liked him

and THEN ask for his name
write him notes, stuffed in his locker
without an ounce of shame

You'd wear your cutest clothes
And you'd always looks your best
You'd find out all his classes
and knew in which halls you'd pass

Do you remember the first time
you thought you were in love
It felt like you were choking
on all the little stuff

The first kiss you had dreamt of
awkward, full of nerves
and you laugh about it now
but back then it was the worst

Do you remember the first time

in love you actually fell

and you swore you'd never feel this way
for anybody else

The fights they came and went
and the struggles felt like death
and everytime you saw them
it stole your every last breath

The first time someone touched you
and you felt like you could puke
cause you had never been so close
everything was all too new

Then came the ending

with broken phones and shredded letters
all the texts you thought of sending
but knew not to would be better

The months of your heart aching

every guy you saw you'd hate
It literally felt like it was breaking
No use for the duct tape

Do you remember the years searching

for the one to make you sweat

in your palms, your heart racing

but when looking, never met

And when you finally stopped searching

when you'd let go of the rope

your "game" had just stopped working
Everyone single one, told nope

Do you remember that moment

when you knew you fell in love

do you remember that nauseas feeling
when you had thought you'd given up

I remember that moment
as if only a day ago

when you look them in the eye

and your heart already knows

I knew I loved that feeling
the first time that it came
but it was lit, then burnt out quick
like an old trick candle flame

But I dont know this feeling

that's consuming me inside out

for falling in love with you

I have no single doubt

But I cant say Ive felt this

when my heart just doesnt beat
and my words begin to twist
fall to my clumsy feet

And I cant keep staring

as if though my eyes are broken

and the thoughts in my head blaring
and my heart is cut right open

I cant catch my breath

when you walk into the room

I miss every step
when Im walking right towards you

I cant speak in English

Ive forgotten my own name

when I want to talk to you
the jibberish sounds the same

I cant grasp a single thought

Cause I can barely think