Lately

I've been hearing lots of silence

But your voice rings in my head

I've been sitting here trying to write this

Hours since I've left my bed

Lately I've come to realize

of music I listen less

I've been writing my own melody

putting such sad lyrics to rest

I've spent most my life dreaming

And the other half sleeping

Everything has been so defeating

I've often found myself just weeping

Lately I've come to notice

that I smile more than frown

and I cry more from laughing

than feeling so let down

I dont want to look back steaming

all the anger from my eye beaming

Just looking forward to whats ahead

Screaming, "F**k the past" instead

Lately I've come to wonder

why I was wasting so much time

but if I was never truly sad

Then I wouldn't know how to be fine

And if I learned just to be fine

Than maybe I'd start to feel okay

And once that finally happened

I looked forward to a new day

Lately I've been singing

to all the songs I've lost the words

And I begin to notice

This song was never heard

For I never had a reason

A true sense of how it feels

to be happy, to feel loved

to feel life is surreal

And then one day I saw you

and my heart jumped out of my chest

Lately, I've been blind

but I saw you weren't like the rest