Oct 29, 2012

Why can I not find You during my good times?  I am doing everything I can to focus on You with my head up, but with a wondering mind I do little but crumble under this pressure. God is love, and I thought I knew those three words better than anything.  Only to think a modern day relationship is close enough to be considered a marriage.  My best friend has been pulled from me.  Why it took six years I may never know.  It is impossible to give any type of concern to what physically lies around me.  They mean absolutely nothing.  There are only brief periods of peace.  My inability to communicate with people has cost me again.  I knew a storm was brewing, but one could never feel the wrath until it's right on top of you.  No matter how much wisdom we think we have, there is always much more to experience.  If this is my punishment, then make it swift or give me a truce... then grant me the wisdom to fix what I've destroyed.