Oct 26, 2012

If I could express my feelings without fear, I could get what I want.  If I cannot, then it is Your will for me to be alone... then give me the strength to fight for You instead of me.  Take away my desires.  If hurt is my medicine then grant it to me, just grant me protection in my own anarchy.  The less faith I have in myself, the more I have for You.  Your unexpected varied ways of breaking me are neverending.  All this time I've been asking You to turn me into the man you want me to be, always knowing it might sting a little.  I will always be faithful to You at the cost of my own devastation.  It is the great spirit you blessed me with to carry out an all out war with my flesh.