Oct 22, 2005

Yes, that's right, another blog!  Some of you are probably thinking.... "what in the world has gotten into Justin?!"  God has tugged on my heart many times and this last incident, I finally changed.  Unfortunately, I have heard that in the bible there is no hope for some people.  They will always be blinded by evil.  I actually find this extremely hard to believe, but it's true.  Some people's hearts have been so hardened from evil, no matter what happens to them or how many times you tug on their heart, they won't budge.  I feel sorry for these people.

Every since I've changed, all I've seen are miracles and everyone talking about His word.  Slowly but surely, I think my family is coming together.  My mom and dad have always talked about how much they hate each other, and how much they wish the other was dead.  That's a horrible thing to say, especially around their own children.  They both claim they are Christians, but that doesn't mean much.  Everyone has heard, actions are louder than words.  In this case you can claim you're a Christian all you want... but it means nothing if you don't follow Jesus.  Just going to church on Sundays is awesome... but it also doesn't mean much if you don't follow His word.  Have you ever heard of, Sunday saints, Monday sinners?  I believe I'm referring to hypocrites.  That's another story.

Now just because the Lord is helping my family come together, doesn't mean everything is going to be perfect and flawless.  It doesn't work like that.  There will be times when we are tested.  No matter what happens in our family, we will always love each other.

I think I get tested more than I think.  Especially when it comes to other people.  For example, when I get so irritated at someone for doing something irritating or mean to me.  Something always asks me in my head, "do you still love this person?"  No matter how much I want to say no, I think to myself.  Of course I do.  Then I forgive them.  One of the toughest things in this world to do, is forgive someone who has done so much physical and/or emotional damage to you.  It can be done.

Ever since I changed my ways, I see almost everything different now.  I just keep praying He will show me the truth.