Life Sucks!

So I know the chapter names not great. I mean, it really makes you happy right? Yeah, well it's not suppose to. My life did suck at that point. That was all I could think about. I mean, mom claiming to want me dead, dad threatened me, Bob talked, and I had to go to dinner at my dads house. How much better could my life get? I would say I couldn't wait till school was out, or till I was in collage, but actually that was where I would want to be as long as dad was out, and mom was losing her mind. Mickey and Abby needed me. That's all I knew.
"Allison, you need to be on your best behavior tonight, and get Mickey to be also. You can act scared all you want, it will be better that way!"
"Mom, dad came to my school yesterday." I said watching her reaction very closely.
"I know. I told him to invite you himself, so you would believe he was trying." she said like it was nothing.
"He threatened me." I said.
"What to make sure you actually showed up?" she laughed.
"No! For no reason at all! He forced me to give him a huge and then he said "I'd watch out if I were you!""
"He was probably talking about that wreak that happened yesterday! You worry to much!" she said acting like it was nothing, but I could tell she was worried, so I kept pushing.
"Mom! Please stop this! Please end it with him before someone gets hurt." I begged again.
"The only person who maybe getting hurt is you if you don't stop! I wish I hadn't gotten home when I did!" she yelled but I could see something else was going on. Just like when Taylor and I were in that fight over the summer, something was keeping mom from telling me what she really thought and felt. The only question I had, was why. Why did my mom not want me to know she truly hated my father, as much or maybe even more than she does me. I know deep down she loves me, I couldn't give up on her. No matter what she said.
"You don't mean that! Mom, I'm just like you! The only difference is that you are to scared to stand up and fight for what is right, and what you love. I can, and I won't stop till my family is safe. I'm acting more like those kids mother than you are! Now please, just tell me whatever it is you don't want to tell me. I can see by the look in your eye, that something is up. There is something you won't tell me! Why?! What is it mom?! If dad threatened you, tell me. I'll play along, I won't let him hurt you, anymore than I would let him hurt Mickey and Abby. Please mom! Please!" I was crying so hard. I needed her, and something told me she need me. I know I always said I hated her, and we were always fighting. But she is my mother, and I loved her. I just needed her to talk to me.
"He would never threaten me! I not hiding anything, that is any of your business! I am those kids mother! Not you! Keep this attitude up and you will be on the street next month! You'll be eighteen and you won't be able to get me in any trouble with the law!"
"Mom please!" I couldn't even form sentences anymore. I just wanted her to listen, but she wasn't. I had to stop crying. I had to be strong. I had the power, to keep this family together, or pull it apart. I had to keep it together for Mickey and Abby. I had to keep fighting! I wasn't giving up just like that!
"Go get ready!" she yelled at me as she walked up the stairs.

Two hours later I was at my fathers house. Well his apartment, how he had any money, to live anywhere I don't know, unless mom gave it to him. What did he want with her? Why was he threatening her? I had to watch how they reacted when they thought no one was looking, and when they knew, someone was.
"Hey! My family's finally here!" he seemed so happy. I didn't buy it. Abby jumped into his arms. She had been dreaming about this day forever, no matter how bad me and Mickey talked about dad. She won't stop believing mom. Of course we didn't tell her much cause she is only four.
"Daddy!" Abby yelled as she gave him a big huge.
"Hey sweetie." he said hugging back, and sounding just like a father should sound, a part of me wished Jason was there.
"Mickey, Allie, are y'all going to give me a huge?" he asked acting like yesterday at school never happened.
"No." Mickey answered for us. I would've but I wanted Mickey to choose for himself.
"Oh come on kids. You know I love you." he said like nothing had happened other than him and mom divorcing.
"If they don't want to give you a hug they don't have to!" Mother said stepping in front of us. She was very good at her act, only because she saw the police men sitting on the couch. "Kids why don't y'all go wait in the living room, I'm going to go put this in the kitchen." mom said holding up her famous chocolate cake.
"I'm going to go check on dinner." Dad said. I was scared to eat whatever he cooked out of fear he would poison us.
"Where's the bathroom?" I asked.
"Down the hall." Dad answered. I walked off down the hall. I didn't need to go to the bathroom, I just wanted to get away from them. I walked on to the very last room, it looked almost exactly like my room from the old house. It even had some pictures, of me and the girls from two years ago. He had recreated my room, why? What kinda mind game was he trying to play here? As I looked around, I started to look a little bit more closely. It looked just like my old room did on the night he tried to rape me. I went over to the cd player and inside was the cd I had been listening to. It was paused on the song, that had been playing.
The covers were the same, the posters, everything. The closet door was even open the same amount, and some of my old clothes were even in there. In fact, all my old stuff, that had been put into the basement was in there, Mom was in on it. She gave him all that stuff. She was trying to help him get to me. Why? What did she have to gain, from making me scared? Other than the chance that she would loss the so called love of her life, yet again. This made no since. The desk was the same, the computer, it had the same back ground, and desk top on it. Even my old cell phone, was plugged in laying on the bed. Just like I had left it when I got up to turn down my music. I hit play on the cd and sat down on the bed, just like I had been that night right before he walked in. If I could get though this without breaking down, he would never win! I had to prove to myself, that I was stronger than he wanted to think.
I laid down, the magazine from that night was on my bed. I started reading it. It was on the page I left off at, how he remembered all of this, I don't know. I got to the point I had stopped at, I imagined him busting the door open, I could hear him yelling. I got up to turn the music down. I could feel him grab me as I turned around. Feel him pin me against that wall, feel him kissing me. I tried to fight it, but I couldn't. I could feel him pulling my pants off. I could hear the car door. I could feel him grab me and throw me down and yell at me again. I could see him walk out. It was like I had stepped back in time. I had to do this if I was going to move on. I could hear him and mom yelling downstairs, I could hear the sudden silences, and their bed room door shutting. I could feel myself reaching up to turn my cd player back on as I crawled back to my bed, and cried myself to sleep.
I was trying to fight the tears, I could feel them coming now, he had to be stopped, it was up to me. I was pulled but to reality when I felt someone sit on the bed beside me, I thought at first it was Mike, but the person was to heavy, it wasn't mom, Mike, Abby, or the police men, that left one person. Dad.
"What do you think of your room?" he asked laying down next to me, which left me stuck on the bed. My old bed had a head bored and a foot bored and I had it against the wall.
"Why would you do this? How could you of done that to me?" I asked, I had always wanted to, but I have always been scared of the answer, but I asked anyways, I had to be brave.
"Because, I love you Allie." he said. I wanted to scream, but I was scared to.
"What do you mean?" I asked, in case my original take on that answer was wrong, which I hoped it was.
"I love you, I wanted to show you I wasn't a monster, like you thought." he said sadly.
"So you try and rape me?" I asked confused, scared, and worried at what would happen next.
"I know it doesn't make any since�" he started to say.
"Dad, stop! I am sick and tired of you and mom lying to me, and acting like y'all know everything! Y'all don't even know what's best for me, Mickey, or Abby!"
"Allie, don't you dare talk about your mother like that!"
"Don't act like you give a damn dad! I know your threatening her. She won't tell me anything, but I know you are, because I know you, and I know mom. There is no other reason she would suddenly say she hates me. Dad, if you really want me to forgive you, tell me the truth, now!" I don't know where that strength came from, but I was glad it came.
"I'm not threatening your mother! I'm not threatening anyone. I've changed, Allie. I just want to prove it to you." he said standing up.
"By making a room in your apartment, look like my room from the house, just like it did that night? Dad, no. It doesn't make since. And you have to be doing something to mom why else would she suddenly hate me?"
"It's not sudden." he said like he's always known.
"Whatever." I said standing up and starting to walk out�when�.he grabbed my wrist, and pin against the wall. I wanted to scream, but I didn't. I just stared him in the eye and stood there, I could tell he was thinking of if he really wanted to finish what he started years ago.
"I'm going to get you back, I'm going to end all of this Allie. Even if I have start, with your friends, and boyfriend. I'll find you if you try and hide, I'm not giving up just like that. This will end, one way or another." he said letting go of me. That's when I knew I had to go with my last restored, but please don't think badly of me when you hear it. I just did it to protect the people I love�

That Saturday, I went to Tony's dinner. I had called Taylor to come meet me. Dave, and Kel where at a family reunion. I had sent Todd a text and said Kelly wanted to see him before she left, problem was she left the night before I sent the text. I know this is a bitchy, horrible thing to do, but I didn't know what else to do. I was talking to Todd, as soon as I saw Taylor walking in, I kissed Todd. I didn't want to, I felt like crap, but I had to do something.
"Allie!" T yelled when she saw us.
"Taylor!" I shouted back looking shocked. Todd had tried to push me away, so at least I knew he was a great boyfriend for Kelly, and a great friend to Jason.
"Allie, how could you?" Taylor asked, she looked so hurt, she must have been imaging what I was imaging, Kelly's reaction.
"It's not what it looked like!" I said quickly, part of me wanted to explain, part of me knew I couldn't, not yet, maybe not ever. My heart was breaking.
"Which mean's it was exactly what it looked like. After everything that happened between us last summer, how could you?" she looked so hurt.
"I'm sor�"
"Save it. Kelly is the one you should be saying sorry to, if she even wants to hear it. She stood up for you, she got you back with Jason, when I caused y'all to break up, she did so much for you, and this is how you repay her? By kissing her boyfriend in her family's restaurant? You're so lucky she's out of town right!"
"Wait what?" Todd asked. "Allie, you told me Kelly wanted to meet me here before she left on her trip, you told me they decided to take a later plane out of town?" I couldn't believe what I had just done, and it wasn't over yet.
"What?!" Tay yelled.
"I lied." I said, "I just said that because�.because, I really like you Todd. I have for a while now and I didn't know how to tell you." I know, I'm a b***h, and a liar and a horrible friend, but I had to keep them safe. Dad threatened them. I had to push them away. I didn't want them near me as long as he was free.
"Allie�.I can't believe this." Taylor said right before she turned around and ran out. Todd got up to leave, I wanted to stop them, but I couldn't. I needed that to happen if I wanted to keep them safe. Now, how do I get ride of Claire? I thought�.
I was sitting at the dinner thinking it over for a while, finally, Jason came in. Taylor, Todd, or both must of talked to him, because he looked mad, and hurt. I wanted to cry, I couldn't bare to see that pain in his eyes, I loved him, so much, but that was why I had to do it, I knew I had a chance to never get any of them back, but I needed to do something. They had all stood up for me, and protected me, it was my turn.
"Hey baby!" I said like nothing had happened. I got up to give him a kiss but he pulled away, which hurt even more. "What's wrong sweetie?" I asked.
"Don't call me baby, or sweetie, you lying cheating b***h!" he said.
"Jason�"
"No! I don't want to hear it! Taylor told me, than before I could confront Todd, he told me, the same story. So either they rehearsed, or you are a b***h, so which is it? Did you kiss Todd?" Jason asked, I wanted to tell him why I did what I did, but I knew I couldn't.
"Yes." I whispered. "But Jason, I love you�"he cut me off
"Love me? You love me? That's why you kissed my best friend, who is also going out with one of your best friends? Don't act like you love me. You are no better than your parents. You kissed David, and got me to believe you, it won't work a second time Allie. We're done. For good!" he was so mad. I started crying, that wasn't what I wanted. I wanted him to hold me, and tell me it was all going to be ok, that dad won't be able to hurt him, or my friends, or my family. I need him, and the girls, and I pushed them away, well not Claire, just yet.
"Jason please!" I yelled as he walked out of the dinner. A started crying. A short while later, Claire came in. I didn't want to do this, she had done so much for me. She had shown me I could live and laugh and have fun when I thought my life was over, I didn't know I was going to get though this without her crazy personality, but I had to.
"Allie what's wrong?" she asked sitting next to me.
"Don't talk to me!" I yelled.
"Why?" she asked.
"Cause you're a loser, and a joke, ok, you were a charity case, and as far as I'm concerned I'm done. Your so stupid! You need to get a life, stop playing that stupid snake game, and get a boyfriend that isn't so dull. I don't even know why I put up with you for so long!" I could believe what I had just said to her.
"What?" she looked so hurt, my heart was breaking even more.
"I just felt sorry for you because of your parents, but really, I have it worst off than you, so I'm done pretending to care!" I had decided to stop, and tell her the truth, I couldn't do this to her, but it was to late, the rest had already sunk in.
"Fine! I'm going to go get a taco." she said quickly and walking out.
"Claire!" I yelled, but it was already to late. I couldn't believe what I had down. It was a few weeks from my birthday, and I pushed away almost everyone who loved me, and I still wasn't done. I couldn't let dad come to the house to get me, not when the kids were there, so I made it easy for him. That night, when Mike, Abby, and mom went to sleep, I grab my stuff and left. I went to dads.

"Allie!" dad was shocked to see I had come. "What are you doing here?" he asked.
"I'm tired of fighting, and hiding. You wanted me. Here I am." I said. It was a three day weekend, this was going to suck. Do you now see how this chapter is called, Life Sucks? I wished I hadn't done that. I wanted to call Jason, Tay, Kel, and Claire. Then I remembered, Kelly didn't know yet, as far as I knew. I couldn't tell her what I had done, but I could at least see if they told her.
"hey Kelly. I just wanted to see how your family reunion was going." I texted her.
"Great!!! It's a lot of fun! I just wish you and everyone else could of come!" she replayed. It was morning for her, see she was in Rome. So yeah big time difference.
"yeah, so do I. Hey, I know this won't make since, and I know I have no right to say it, or even, really be talking to you right now. But Kelly, I'm so sorry." I know I shouldn't of said that to her, but I had to. "tell everyone else I said that, they'll explain, why I have no right. But I am so sorry. I am everything Madison said, and I'm tired of pretending. I'm a b***h, and it's time I stop pretending to be something or someone I'm not. I lied enough, I can't take it anymore. I'm sorry." that basically sealed the deal, when she heard what happened, she was guaranteed to hate me, which is what I needed to have happen.
"What are you talking about Allie?" I stopped texting her after that, I couldn't take it anymore. I hated myself for doing that. I hated my father for making me feel like that was my last hope, the only way I could protect my family. I pretty much locked myself in my room all weekend, unpacking, and packing. I put all that old crap into boxes, and took out all my more recent stuff and put it up. Mike keep calling me, but I didn't answer. I listened to all his voice mail, they all were him crying and asking where I was and begging me to come home. I finally texted him, I told him I was fine, I was staying at dads, and that he need to watch Abby, and not tell anyone where I was. I told him I loved him, and for him to tell Abby that I loved her to. I was crying so hard when I listened to his voice mails, but it helped me remember why I was doing what I was doing. IF mom wasn't going to stand up for our family, than I would, and I wasn't going to stop till I won.

Reviews

[Morgan]

That was the end of the chaper! Yay me! Lol

[Rose Elizabeth]

Arg! So clifthangy! You need to finnish and I need to do my physics homework! Good job! I really want to know what happens next!