The Make up

So as you could tell my first weekend of senior year was ok. My first week could have been better. I think I was just glade that it was over. Now it was time to just fall into an over all routine. I met up with Clair in History and we walk to Cooking together than I went off to Science with the girls, where we gave each other the cold shoulder, then to English and lunch was right after that so me and Claire walked to lunch together than study hall, Math with Jason were we didn't even look at each other any more, not after what happened that weekend, he had a faded red hand print on his face still, then Art with Claire. It was a nice routine. Could have been better but it worked.
Claire kept trying to get me a Charles to hang out after school. I told her I had agreed to go out that weekend that should be enough. In cooking class, which was tied with Art as my favorite class, we had to practice the different types of cuts. It was really easy. After we had finished and were cleaning up Claire came towards me with a knife in her hand loosely pointed at me. "What do I do with this?"
��������"Put it on the counter." I said scared at that moment.
"Ok." Said Claire walk towards me again.
"No the counter behind you." I said putting at the one. How she got put in a class like this I will never understand. I also will never understand how she got put in my group.
In science we had to turn in our labs which it turned out they went ahead and their own work so it seemed like I just didn't work with the group. I couldn't believe that, so much for them caring about me. Jason thought even worst of me after that weekend. I couldn't believe that I had slapped him even though he so needed it. I had kinda hoped that what I said would have made a difference with Jason, but I should have guessed it was too good to be true. I was so happy when school was over.
I had been waiting for senior year since I was in like sixth grade. A lot more once I got to high school. My school year was ok. I am just kinda buying time here. I guess I should move on with my story. I'm sure you are dying to know what happened next. So the rest of that second week went the same as Monday. Not all that exciting. Well that is not all that exciting until Friday.
On that Friday when I got into math class Jason put a note on my desk. I didn't know what to think, but being the optimist person I was, I opened it and started reading.
Dear Allie,
Hey, so listen, I know I was a total jerk at the end of the summer. And that it has taken me way to long to find the words to say it but baby I am so sorry. Please forgive. I knew that day, that I was a jerk but I have too much of an ego and to much pride to admit it. Please forgive me. I'm so, so sorry. I am scum and do not deserve you. But if you will I would love to be your boyfriend again. If you moved on I will understand. It will hurt but I understand. And that "Little s**t" was never my girlfriend just a girl my friends set me up with. I should have known you would never do anything to purposely hurt me and if you say that you didn't want him to be there, that you were trying to find me that you meant it. Allie I still love.
������������������������Love,
������������������������ Jason Blaze Thomas
Wow. So he did feel the same. He still loved me. He really still loved me. I didn't know what to say or think. So I had to go talk to Claire. Luckily she was in my seventh period class. I ran out of math class before Jason could stop me. I had to talk to Claire. I loved him but I didn't know what to think.
"Hey, Claire, look at this." I said handing her the note from Jason.
"Wow so that loser scum who didn't listen to you decided he was being dumb, took him long enough."
"So you don't think I should forgive?"
"No! He is a loser, and scum. And he didn't listen to you!"
"But I think I still love him. I think, I maybe able to forgive him"
"Whatever he is still a loser and scum. Hey we are going to the bookstore today after school so you can get the Gallagher Girl books!"
"Claire I have to go home an�"
"Nope you are coming with me. No excuses."
"But�"
"No!"
"Claire."
"No excuses. You're coming with me."
"Claire."
"Did you hear me? No excuse."
"Fine!"
"Thank you!"
After Art I went to my locker and I told Claire I would meet her at my car. When I was getting my homework out of my locker Jason showed up. "Hey Allie." He sounded sad and scared. I guess he was nervous having to come to talk to me. To swallow his pride and tell me how wrong and stupid he was. I hopped he could tell that I still felt the same way.
"Hey Jas."
"Did you read my note?"
"Yeah I read it."
"And?"
"And I believe you are sorry. I believe that you didn't want to hurt me. I believe you didn't know how to tell me that you were being stupid. And how to tell me that your sorry you are so dumb and that you didn't believe me when I said that I didn't want him. Jason I was just as much of an idiot as you were. If I had just tried to get those stupid girls out of my head I could have�"
"Allie stop. This is not your fault. This is my fault. I should have never just walked out. I was a jerk. Please don't blame yourself for me being an idiot."
"Jason. I haven't been able to stop thinking about you. I still love you."
"I love you too Allie. I never stopped. I don't think I can if I try."
"Hey Allie are you ready to go to the bookstore?" said Claire has she started walking up.
"Hey. Claire this is Jason. Jason, this is my new friend Claire."
"Oh so this is the low live scum that broke your heart.""Claire!"
"Hey Allie its ok. I deserve that."
"No you don't Jason. Claire, Jason and I are going back out." I could tell Jason was shocked. I mean I never really got to give him that yes, but the second I read that note I knew I was going to take him back. I just talked to Claire because if I was going to back out, or at least be able to talk of it then I figured Claire would have been the one to do it, but even she couldn't get me to get over him.
"Oh so you really like the ones that don't listen to you? I thought it was just a faze, or are you still going though the faze? And are you going out with him while you are going out with Charles? Cause Charles doesn't like being cheated on."
"Clair shut up!"
"Well which is it?"
"Wait. You already have another boyfriend?" said Jason looking at me shock. I felt oh so special knowing that he thought I couldn't get another boyfriend if I wanted. I probably couldn't but he didn't need to make it so obvious he agreed.
"Jason, no I don't have a boyfriend. That's just what Clair calls him. She set me up with some loser and�"
"Loser? You said that you really liked him."
"Yeah, no. Sorry Claire but he is a geek. I can only take so much weirdness, and that ends with you and Bob."
"Thanks a lot! I'm going to go cry now!"
"Really?"
"Yes!" she said as she started to walk off down the hall.
"Claire wait! I'm sorry."
"I know you are jeez I was just being sarcastic" she said continuing to walk down the hall. "Are you coming or not!"
"What?"
"Bookstore!"
"Oh right sorry. Jason I'll call you later ok?"
"Ok?" He said looking confused.
"Sorry babe I kinda promised Claire, but what do you say you come over tomorrow?" I was so happy to have him back, and I couldn't wait to hang out with him. I believed him but apart of still had my guard up. I guess a part of me was scared that he would do it again. I still am sometimes. I now text him well not exactly was I'm going to tell him just if it is good new or bad news. I love it but I guess that left an impression on me. Of course you would think that by now I would be use to people not believing me but you know, it's not a feeling I wanna get use to.
"Sure thing babe, see you tomorrow afternoon"
"Can't wait." I leaned in and gave him a big kiss. I still could hear fire works as we kissed. When we pulled apart I saw Taylor walking by. She was looking every where but at me. I couldn't believe this. You would think that by now she would have moved on. I mean really it had been over three months since she tried to go out with him. I missed hanging out with her but I didn't know what I could do to fix things with her. I had to move on.
"Or you coming or not! We having a lot to look at!" Claire said sounding really annoyed.
"Sorry Claire I'm coming, but what do you mean we have a lot to look at? I thought we were just getting the Gallagher books?"
"We are but!"
"You know I don't like it when you add a but in sentences."
"I know but!"
"Claire."
"Well I thought we could also look at some other books!"
"What other books Claire?"
"You will see." She said grabbing me by the arm and dragging me to the car. I bought the Gallagher girl books and read them. She also talked me into reading books by Sarah Dessen. I hadn't read them at the time but now that I have they are all really good.

On Friday I texted Jas and told him to come over at around one. Even though I knew I couldn't wait that long to hang out with him, but I had to talk to Mickey before hand. I was shocked that I was able to sleep that night. I was so excited it took me a while to go to sleep, but once I did was out. I dreamed of Jason all night. When I finally woke it was eleven on Saturday.
Mickey actually woke me up. I was sleeping all nicely when I heard "Allie wake up!"
"What" I said rolling over not even opening my eyes.
"Wake up!"
"Why? What time is it?"
"Eleven."
"Oh crap I have to go get in the shower." I said jumping out of bed.
"Plans with Claire?" Mickey asked sitting on my bed sadly.
"No. Mike what's wrong?" I asked sitting next to baby brother. Sometimes I wished I wasn't the oldest
"Nothing." He said sadly.
"Little bro I know when you are lying to me. Now what's wrong?"
"It's just. I just. I miss getting to spend a lot of time with you, and after the girls stopped coming over we hung out again, then you met that jerk and we didn't hang as much, then he dumped you and again we hung out, and now you've met Clair and I don't."
"Mickey. You know I love spending time with you to but I am not about to give up friends to do it. And please be nice to Jason. You don't know what happened between us. It was just as much my fault."
"Allie�"
"No Mickey listen, Jason and I we are going back out."
"But�"
"No buts. This is my decision. Not yours. Maybe I'll explain it all to you when your older but right now your to�"
"Young. I know. You have no how idea how many times I hear that."
"Yes I do Mike. I was ten once to believe it or not, but listen you may think you know what's going on, and may think you understand, but you won't truly understand until your older. Give it a few years."
"Allie�"
"What is it bro?"
"I love you."
"I love you to Mickey." I said. I gave him a big bear hug and a kiss on the cheek. He hated when I kissed him. He was so cute.
"Allie!"
"Abby!" I held out my arms and she jumped right into them. We did a big group hug. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have the two of them there. I could not stand being an only child. "Ok I have to go take a shower and get ready for Jason he's coming over in a couple of hours but if y'all wanna chill in here go ahead, but Mickey do not read my Journal again or you will not be aloud back in here." I said with a slight laugh.