The breife realationship

Two weeks later and I still hadn't talked to Taylor or Madison. I wanted to cry almost everyday. We all live in the same neighborhood, and every time I saw them walk past my house, or drive by, or just looked at there houses, or something in my room reminded me of them (which was just about everything) I wanted to cry even harder. I felt a hole in my heart and life where they were suppose to be, and wondered if they felt the same way. I wondered if they at least missed Kelly. She had stuck by me, so they dumped her when they dumped me. I had to stop myself from calling Jason. If I called him that would seem like I lied all along and I would lose the only friend I had left. I couldn't do that.
"I am so sorry they won't talk to you either Kelly. I hoped they wouldn't do that to you just because you believed me, but they aren't going to forgive me. They will forgive you though if you just go to them and tell them I am as horrible as they think." I didn't want Kelly to be shut out because I was. I didn't want her to feel what I was feeling. I thought I would feel at little bit better if Kelly was back with them.
"I can't do that because I don't think you are horrible. I don't think you are anything they say you are. I know you are nothing like that! I won't ditch you just to hang out with them. I won't leave you alone."
"You won't be as long as whenever you can you call or text. Just so I have someone to talk to and don't lose my mind. I would feel better knowing they were talking to you. Knowing you believed me. Maybe you could change there minds somewhere down the road."
"Allie you are a great friend I won't do that to you." She said.
"I'm not a great friend Kelly. I still really like Jason. I can't stop thinking about him. I have to fight myself to keep from calling him. I don't know what to do. If I call him I am as bad as they say. And I feel I would have let you down."
"Allie you could never let me down."
"Thanks Kelly. I still can't call him. I can't. He probably hates me now. I told him never to talk to me again. He hasn't even tried to talk to me. I blew whatever chance I had with him trying to save a friendship I lost anyways. I broke his heart for nothing. I wouldn't give me a second chance either. I wouldn't be surprise if he is going out with Taylor by now." I was hoping I was wrong about everything I just said but I had a feeling that I was right about some of it if not all of it.
"Well, you know there is only one way to find out."
"You get to be friends with Taylor and Madison again and tell me if she's going out with him or not so I figure that much out before I try and talk to him." I said hoping she would say ok. I should have known she wouldn't catch on.
"No, you call him and ask him. Or I will."
"Kelly that's a bad idea, for so many reasons, starting with the fact that it makes me look as bad as Madison and Taylor already thinks I am. I like my plan a lot better." I did. It let me know before hand if he and Taylor were going out so I didn't make things worst between us before they could even get better.
"I'm not ditching you!" Kelly said. She really was a great friend during that time but I didn't want her going though all of this pain. I could tell either way it would be hard on her, but I was hoping it would be easier if she got all of her best friends back, even if Kelly did have to talk bad about me whenever she was with Madison and Taylor.
"You won't be ditching me. I promise. We will still be friends, always." I didn't know if what I just told her was true or not. I hoped it was. I couldn't lose her to, but it didn't seem fair to me to have her stick around when I could tell she missed the girls to. Plus this way I could tell if they were still mad at me or not.
"Allie�"
"Kelly, please. For me, just go back to them."
"Allie" We were both crying by that point. I didn't know why I was pushing the only friend I had left away. I still don't really get it. I just thought it would be easier. I will let you decide if you think it was or not.

Two week later, I was sitting in my room staring out my window. I hadn't talked to anyone outside of my family for a week. Kelly wasn't answering my text or phone calls. Something had to be wrong; either they turned her against me or something. As I sat on my bed and looked out my window I saw the three of them drive by. They looked like they were having so much fun. I felt some what better thinking that Kelly was happy but I felt so alone so after a month of no communication, I picked up my cell and called Jason.
Ring, ring "Hello" he answered.
"Jason," I said crying I didn't know why I was crying. I just knew I had missed him so much.
"Allie? Is that you?" did he delete my number? I guess he had to do something to get him from calling. I almost deleted his number. I was glad I didn't by that point.
"Yeah, it's me." I didn't know what to say or what he was going to say. I just needed to talk to someone.
"Allie? Are you ok? What's wrong?" I hated that he only thought I was calling because something was wrong. I was crying even harder by this point.
"I'm, I'm fine. I, it's�" I didn't know why I called. It was impulse. I wished I hadn't now.
"Allie? What's wrong?"
"I, Taylor and Madison hate me, and I pushed Kelly away and she won't answer my calls and I miss talking to you so much. I'm sorry I freaked when you asked me out. I felt and still feel the same. I wanted to say yes. I did. I couldn't say yes though because of Taylor. I didn't want to lose her as friend but I did anyways. I'm so sorry Jason." I said all but that last sentence really, really fast.
I tried to stop myself from spilling my guts or putting either of us on the spot but I couldn't. Once I got going I couldn't stop.
"You have missed me? You only turned me down so you wouldn't lose your best friends and you did anyways? How did they find out cause I didn't tell them?"
"I told Taylor right after. Madison sided with her Kelly with me."
"Wait then why won't Kelly talk to you? And why did you push her away? And this all happened a month ago?" I could tell he was confused. I was scared of what he would think or how he would react.
"I felt guilty that Madison and Taylor were not talk to her because of me. I thought it would be better if she just told them what they wanted to hear and became friends with them again. I told her we would still talk all the time. That maybe she could get them to forgive me�"
"Forgive you, for what?"
"For wanting you to ask me out, for not just asking you if you liked Tay, for not ending things when I could tell we were getting to close."
"Wait! They won't talk to you because I asked you out? Even after you told me you never wanted to talk to or see me ever again?"
"Yes." I was crying even harder. It hurt hearing him repeating what I had said a month ago. It hurt hearing the pain and anger behind his voice. I wished I was where ever he was, but at the same time I was glade I wasn't.
"I can't believe them." He said after a few minutes.
"Jason." I didn't know what to say and I could tell he didn't either.
"Allie, this is all, my fault."
"No! It's not. It's mine. I knew when I fist talked to you that there was something there. I didn't know what though. I wanted to find out, so I didn't just come right out with my question. I told the girls it was so you would trust me. So if you didn't already like Taylor, maybe I could change your mind. I tried to bring her up whenever I could, but I didn't want to talk about her anymore than you did. I wanted to find out what it was I felt between us." I couldn't believe I just told him that. I knew I was saying more than I meant to. I didn't know what to. I just didn't want to hang up the phone. I didn't want lose him again. I know a month doesn't seem like a long time to go without talk to someone I only meant three weeks before. But it was. There was only One Month and one week left of summer. I couldn't start senior year and not have at least one person I could talk to.
Jason let out big sigh. I wondered what he was thinking. "When was the last time you talked to Kelly?"
"I haven't talked to Kelly for a week." I wasn't crying any more. I didn't think I had anymore tears in me.
"A week? Taylor just started trying to talk to me again around that same time."
"Wait what? I didn't know y'all had ever stopped talking?" Why did she start talking to him right as Kelly stopped talking to me? What was going on with those three?
"Yeah, after you turned me down. I didn't try to call her or her try to call me. I figured she didn't want to make things harder on either of us. I didn't know y'all had stopped talking. She called me a week ago and said that she really missed talking to me, and she wanted to make sure I was ok since we hadn't talked in a while. I told her I was fine and asked about you. She changed the subject."
Jason and I talked about this for a while longer than I really wanted to but I did feel better after. I told him it was good just hearing a voice of someone out side of my family. They were driving me crazy wondering why I never left the house any more and why my friends we never around. I didn't tell them. They would think it was stupid, and maybe it was. I didn't know, all I knew was that I had no friends. Well that was if Jason didn't want to be friends anymore. To be perfectly honest with you, I wouldn't have wanted to be friends anymore if roles were reversed; if I did it would have been out of pity.
"Jason, can ask you something?"
"You just did." He replied with a slight laugh. That had to be a good sign right?
"Jason, you know what I mean." I shot back also with a slight laugh. I had almost forgotten what it felt like to laugh or that I could laugh.
"Ok Allie, go ahead."
"Do you hate me?" I couldn't believe I was able to just say it. I thought it would have been really hard and that I would have been straggling to get the words out. It was starting to rain outside. And though I started to feel better, I was scared of what his answer would be, and the rain was not helping me in the least.
"Allie you can't be serious." He sounded shocked. How could he be shocked?
"Yeah I am. Please just answer the question."
"NO! Of course not! How could I hate you! Why would you think that?"
"I don't know. I guess, because if roles were reversed I would be mad."
"Just mad or would you hate me?"
"Mad. I don't think I could hate you if I tired, and believe me I have, even though there is no reason to mad at you." It was true, if I was going to be mad at anyone it would be Taylor and Madison, but I wasn't even mad at them, well not Taylor at least.
"Allie. I�I Love you and haven't been able to stop. I realized it when we first talked. You were and I am sure still are beautiful. I felt something between us that day too, and if you had just asked and left, I would have tried to find you. I had to lock myself in my room for a few days and delete your number from my phone to keep me from going to see you or calling you. I couldn't stop thinking about you. You said there was nothing special about you, but there is. I know there is. If there was nothing special about you I would have moved on by now, but I can't. I can't."
I was crying by this point. I could hardly breathe. I was speechless. I wished I was in the same room as him, so I could have seen his face as he said that. I wanted to be in the same room as he said that so that I could kiss him. I had been wondering for over a month what it would feel like to kiss him. He loved me. He really loved me. I didn't know what to think are say. I was crying harder cause in the back of my mind all I could think about was how much I wanted to call the girls and tell them.
"Allie you don't have to say you love me too. I don't care if you do or don't, it would be nice, but I don't want you to do or say anything you don't mean or,"
"Jason." I had to stop him from rambling. "Meet me at the park in ten minutes�"


"Allie!" He said running up and giving me a big huge. He started to pull away. I stopped him and just stared into his eyes. I could feel the rain drops hitting me. I didn't care how wet we were getting. I actually preferred it; I had been crying so much lately that this just seemed like a better way of meeting up with out me looking so puffy and red. As I looked into his deep blue eyes and him into my green eyes, I felt that connection yet again, and remembering what he had said just minutes before I leaned in a kissed him, feeling his soft, warm lips against mine. I heard fire crackers as we kissed.
Then as we finally stopped kissing, I once again looked deep into his eyes. Gave him a big huge, and whispered in his ear, "I love you too Blaze." Blaze just seemed appropriate for the moment. We went to a little diner that was near the park called, Tony's Diner. It was really good; it was my favorite place to eat at. I use to go there all the time with the girls but I hadn't been there in a while. It always reminded me of Luke's Diner from Gilmore Girls. Why is it that most diners have some ones name in it?
"Hey what can I get you two?"
"Hey Dave, um can I have a cheese burger and fries and a milkshake please?" I said. David was the owner's son. I had known him my whole life, he was Kelly's cousin.
"Coming right up Allie, and for you?" He asked Jason.
"Um�Cheese burger, fries, and a coke please." He said.
"Ok I will be right back with your drinks." David said.
"Thanks Dave." I called after him.
"So how do you know Dave, was it?"
"He's Kelly's favorite cousin."
"Really, Kelly's cousin works here?" He asked.
"Yeah her family owns it."
"Really, her family owns this diner?"
"Yeah, um, her grandfather opened it and he Uncle took it over when he died. He let the four of us work here the last few summers. I was going to this summer but I decided not to."
"Why did you not want to work here?" He asked as David walked up with our drinks.
"Here you go." said David.
"Dave, have you heard from Kelly lately?" I asked.
"Um yeah she just left here a few hours ago actually. She said she had some stuff to do with the girls, which is why I was so shocked to see you here."
"Long story, actually if you figure out what's going on with your cousin let me know because I can't keep up these days."
"Sure thing Allie, your food will be out shortly."
"Thanks Dave."
"No problem Allie, and you," He added turning toward Jason. "Be good to Allison or I will come after you!"
"David, Stop!" I said, not in the mood for a fight.
"Dude, don't worry. I don't plan on hurting her. She's too special." Jason said. I started smiling at him.
After we had started to eat my mind began to wonder to Kelly and the girls. What were they doing that was important enough for her to tell Dave? Why had she not told him I wasn't in the group anymore? Why was he telling Jason not to hurt me? He knew I was over him. Didn't he? "Jason?"
"Yes, Allie?'
"You're a guy�"
"Last time I checked." I just sighed and rolled my eyes at that comment.
"Can you tell if another guy likes a girl?" I asked afraid of what he would think when he knew why I wanted to know.
"You talking about David liking you?" he replied. I was shocked, for two reasons. One he sounded like he didn't care that I wanted to know if another guy liked me not long after I told him I loved him and the fact that he said Dave liked me.
"Wait, you think Dave likes me?" I asked. I wasn't sure how to feel about that.
"Yeah, can't you tell?"
"I was hoping I was wrong. I normally am."
"So you don't like him?" He did care.
"Not anymore. I did last year, but I got over when he started going out with some other girl two days after he found out I liked him. He's still a good friend, or at least he would be in Kelly doesn't tell him she hates me."
"I don't think she hates you."
"Something not right though."
"So is that why you didn't want to work here, because of Kelly?"
"And Taylor, and Madison." They all were working there. I probably should have worked there to have an excuse to talk to Taylor at least. I missed her and Kelly more than Madison. Madison had been a b***h. I think Taylor and me could have worked thing out if it wasn't for her. "Jason, can you find out is going on with the girls?" I don't know why I asked. I just had to know.
"What? How am I suppose to do that?"
"Though Taylor."
"I'm not talking to that B***h. Not after how she treated you."
"Don't call her that! You can call Madison one all you want. I still miss, Madison but she got involved without knowing all the details. I don't know if things could ever be the same between us, even if we did forgive each other."
"Allie."
"Jason, please. Will you just talk to her and act like we still haven't talked, like you still don't know that she hates me."
"That's going to be hard, not telling her that I know everything. Not telling her that I never have and never will like her the way she wants."
"Don't. In fact make her think you do."
"What?" So I know I am sounding like a horrible person right now but I had to know if she would tell him the truth. I had to know if she hated me. I had to know what Kelly was up to.
"Tell her what she wants to hear. Get her to trust you. If she tells you what is going on with the girls then I can find out why Kelly won't talk to me. I can't move on without knowing why Kelly won't talk to me. They came out and told me what scum they think I am but Kelly didn't want to go back to them if it meant leaving me alone. So why after just a week with them would she stop talking to me all at once? At first I just thought she was busy. That she would talk when she could, but after a week I knew something was wrong."
"Ok Allie. I'll see what I can find out for you."
"Thank you Blaze."

So over the next few days Jason texted and called Taylor. I was with him the first few times. Helped him get into her head and say just what she needed to hear. And sure enough, after a week she started to tell him the truth with the group. Well kinda. She told him that it was her who got pushed out not me. "She's trying to make you feel sorry for her." I said not believe how low my former friend would sink to get what she wanted.
"She's really good at acting. She says it feels horrible being with out friends. She says she cries all the time, and she has a hard time not calling y'all. She says Kelly still talks to her some but not like she use to."
"Wait, some? If that were true I would still hear from her. I mean what are those three really up to?"
"I don't know babe but maybe you should call her. Something is really upsetting her."
"Jason, you can not really believe her? After everything that happened?" I didn't know what was going on but I had to find out. I had to. Where was Kelly? What was she doing? Dave said she had been working right as I get there he would say she just left which made no since because I took the path she would take home. Which had to mean she was taking another way right? But why? Where was she going that was so important?
"No baby. I don't believe her, but she is upset about something." He really sounded sorry for her.
"Did she say how she supposedly got kicked out of the group?" I asked trying to think of why she would be lying to him.
"She said that you got mad at her after you dumped me and that you and she got into a horrible fight about it. That Madison jumped in and defended you. Kelly said nothing, but she text her when she can just to let her know she is not alone."
"So she took the truth and bended it? Swapped me for her and changed Kelly's actions. You don't think she found out me and Kelly, were still friends and that's why Kelly won't talk to me anymore?" I was scared. What if she had something to do with why Kelly wasn't talking to me? I missed Kelly so much.
"Allie. Allie, baby. I know you want to know where Kelly is and what she is doing. I know you wanna know why she won't talk to you. I do to, but sweetie I promise you, you will be ok. Everything will work out for the best baby. Rather or not you find out what they are up to. Please don't become obsessed with it. Please."
"I'm not obsessed! I'm worried!" I lied. I was obsessed, and worried. I loved Blaze. I did, but I just had to know what was going on, even if it meant lying. I wasn't going to loss him again because of them. It's because of them we meet, broke up, got back together, and I wasn't going to let them be the reason we got messed up again.

"Dave. Hey!" I went to the diner almost every day, by that point.
"Are you sure you don't work here Allison, because you are here enough to."
"Thanks Dave." I said laughing. It made me feel somewhat closer to Kelly knowing that Dave was there and he kinda felt like a link between us. "Well you know why I am really here I am sure."
"To see me?" he asked laughing. I just rolled my eyes and looked at him. "She took the day off." He finally said.
"What? Why? You said she had to work a double all week because you were short staffed." Where was she? I needed to talk to her and she wouldn't answer my phone calls.
"She got someone to work for her." David said. I most looked as confused as I felt because he suddenly added. "Tay is covering the shift."
"T�T�Taylor?" I said not believing what I was hearing. I had missed her everyday that I went in there. I timed it just so. I couldn't face her. Not now that I was going out with Blaze�.Jason. I loved him. I wasn't going to let her mess that up for us. I wanted to talk to Kelly, figure out why she wasn't talking to me. Then I wanted to talk to Taylor. Not Taylor then Kelly.
"Yeah, Taylor is here. What is going on with y'all? I mean something is up. You come in here everyday trying to find Kelly and now I tell you T is here and you are a white as a ghost." said Dave.
"Is Taylor here now?" I didn't know what I was going to do. I could tell by looking at him that he was confused. I was scared. I had to think fast. "Dose she know about Jason, or that I've been here everyday?"
"Yes. No. Yes." I loved how he just answered. Most people would have been like what? Why? Or all those other stupid answers I didn't have time for. So how many people think I'm nuts for making a big deal that Taylor was there? I do looking back on it now, but then, all I wanted was to know why my life was like it was. I didn't understand how my friends could just ditch me.
"Ok. If she asks I'm here to see you. I haven't talked to Jason in months, and I am really upset because Kelly won't talk to me, and I feel all alone, and if it wasn't for you I would have no friends. Got it?" I know it makes little since but if I wanted her to trust Jason I had to keep my cover from getting blown.
"Ok?" Dave had just said, and I could tell he was about to ask why when, "Hey Davie." Said Tay running up to him, Davie was the nickname she gave him. "Oh, sorry I didn't know you were�" I had just turned around and she noticed who he was talking to. "What is SHE doing her?"
"I can hear you Taylor. I'm standing right here. If you have something to say to or about me, just say it to my face would you?" I felt like crying.
"Fine! What are you doing here? You know that no one wants to see you."
"No one here? Really? You should really learn to speak for yourself, and stop acting like you can read everyone else's mind! Cause you can't! And if you are close you never truly know the whole story!" I guess a part of me had been waiting for a change to stand up for myself, because I could feel it growing inside of me. Angrier, the angrier I thought I had lost.
"Name one person in here who wants to talk to you Allison!"
"Me!" yelled David. It shocked me. I had not expected him to say that.
"Thanks David but this is between me and her. It's time we worked this out, because I am not going to spend my whole school year fighting with her over something that she wants to believe. Taylor. I love you. You are�you were my best friend. Kelly, Madison, and you, were all my best friends. Now I have no friends. Not really. Not like before. I still have David which is great but it's not the same. Taylor, I'm going out with Jason. I'm sorry. I didn't talk to him for a month but after a while having no one to turn to I had to have someone. I'm sorry. I am."
"Sorry? You're sorry? Really? Cause it doesn't sound like it to me. If you had been sorry you wouldn't have talked to him ever like you said you wouldn't and you�" I could tell she had just realized what I had said. "You told him to talk to me didn't you? It's because of you he is talking to me. You were trying to make him spy on me?"
"No! I wanted to know what y'all were doing. I wanted to know why y'all were not talking to me!" Like I didn't already know. They hated me. But I really didn't know why, my finding happiness was such a bad thing, but apparently it was a federal crime. I had to know why. I had to know.
"We stopped talking to you because you are a�a�.a�." she couldn't say it. But I could tell just by looking at her that she wanted to, even if she couldn't.
"B***h. Right? That is what you were going to say? Then say it. If that is how you truly feel Tay, then say it. It will hurt both of us a lot less if you just admit that you hate me! Even if you do, it won't matter. I didn't do anything wrong, and you hating me isn't going to change the way I feel about him. In case you haven't noticed all it did was push us closer together." Why had I been wasting time with Blaze worrying about her? She wasn't worth this. If she was really my best friend she would have been happy for me no matter what. They wouldn't have treated me like that if I was there friend. Why had I got so tied up in all of this? Why had I let it bother me so much? Blaze was right. I didn't need to let this eat me away, take me over, or become obsessed. It was stupid to feel so sad about all this. I had to learn to stand on my own two feet.
"Al�"
"Tay! Hey! Ok so here is�.. Why is she here?"
"Hi Madison. I was just telling Tay about my new boyfriend. I think you might know him actually. Jason?"
"You B***h." That came out to easy.
"See Taylor. That's how you do. Madison doesn't have a problem admitting she hates me. That she never really was my friend. Only thing I wanna know is why you pretended for so long Maddie." I didn't wanna know. I just wanted Madison to leave so I could hear what Tay was going to say. I had a feeling what I had said got to her. That she was realizing just how stupid this whole thing was.
"Because I could."
"Meaning you don't wanna tell me. I'm not that dumb Madison. I would say I know you to well but apparently I don't. I don't know any of you. Not even Kelly. She won't even talk to me. I don't know why but something tells me it has to do with y'all, but you know what I can't play this game anymore. So if you wanna call me a b***h, a w***e, or a s**t go for it! I don't care anymore! I'm done�." I was trying so hard not to cry. "Dave. Thanks for everything. I�I have to go."
"Al�" yelled Dave as the door to Tony's slammed shut behind me. I started running as soon as I was out the door. I had to get away. I just couldn't believe what I had done. I needed Jason right then. So much. I just keep running until I couldn't run anymore. "Allie" Dave yelled again as I fell to my knees crying. Why was I crying? I know how stupid it was, but I couldn't stop. No matter how hard I tried.
"David please just go away. I wanna be alone."
"Really? Because you really look like you could use a shoulder to cry on." He came over and put him arms around me. I put my head on his crest and just cried. It felt so good to be held. I had started to feel better.
"Thanks Dave." I looked into him eyes. I knew then I should have got up and walked away, but I barely had time to get another word out let alone get up. I didn't know what to do. I just froze as Dave leaned in closer and closer to my face. "Dave�" I whispered just seconds before, he kissed me.
"Allie!" Oh no!
"Jason! Wait! It's not what you think!" I wasn't about to say what it looked like cause that normally makes things worst.
"Oh so you were not just kissing another guy?"
"It's not like that!"
"You said you were going to Tony's to try yet again to talk to Kelly. Then I get a text from Taylor telling me that she knows everything that is going on between us and to get down towards the diner as quickly as I could. And when I get here I find you making out with some other guy, who you told me you were over!"
"Wait, Taylor texted you, so wait, does that me she doesn't still hate me?" I know that it doesn't seem like I should be worrying about Taylor while my boyfriend thinks I am cheating on him but I couldn't help it. She was my best friend. I know I just said I was over all of it and that I didn't care what they thought or how they felt anymore, and I meant it, but Tay was still my best friend no matter what happened between us.
"So you admit that you were making out with him?" said Jason. I could tell he sound hurt and up set.
"Jason, No. You know I love you and only you. I didn't kiss him. He kissed me, and I'm not just saying that to make you forgive me. I'm saying it because it's true! I'm never going to do anything to purposely hurt you Blaze! You know that!"
"Really, do I? All you ever think about is Kelly or Taylor, and how to get them back or to talk to you again! You�."
"I am a B***h I know! I know! Trust me. Madison just made that very clear back there. Taylor also made it clear that no matter how much she misses me she hates me more. And Dave was trying to comfort me. I told him to leave. I wanted to be with you! I was thinking about you! Not him!"
"Stop lying to yourself Allison!"
"Jason! I love you! You want me to take a lie detector? I will! Do you know why I was trying to find you just now? I had just told Taylor that I was done, that I couldn't take it anymore. They can do whatever they want. Jason I decided that as long as I had you I could make it through anything!!!! Please don't throw our love away because some other guy kissed me. Why don't you trust me?"
"Why don't I trust you? You told me you didn't like him you told me you just wanted to talk to one of them and this would be over. You could have talked to any of them at any point but you just waited, just like you did in asking me if I liked Taylor or not."
"Jason! You know why I didn't ask you that. It was so I could get to know you. Yes I was a B***h. I choose you over my friend. The one thing we had agreed never to do, but you didn't like her either way. You said it yourself. And I know I could have talked to any of them at any point, but I was scared. I'm glade I didn't see Kelly though, she was the only I had been looking for, I'm glade it was Taylor, because she helped me realize how much better off I am with out them. I am done with them. I maybe a B***h but they weren't much better not even trying to act like they understood. Not even trying to listen to me. Please Jason don't, do the same thing they did to me. I can't go though that twice!"
"I�I'm sorry Allison. I can't do this anymore. I can't lie to myself anymore."
"What�What do you mean lie to yourself?" What did that mean? He and Madison hadn't both been pretending they liked me had they? I couldn't lose him then I really had no one, because there was no way I could talk to Dave again. He was just standing there. Letting Jason break my heart even more then Taylor and Madison had just done. I think it was Maddie's words that really had gotten to me. I couldn't hear them from him to. He had helped me realize I could stand on my own two feet. That I was stronger than I thought, that I was special. I loved him.
"It means, means, I can't pretend that you love me. Allie you don't know what love is. And if this is your definition of love I don't want any part of it!"
"Jason! I know how I feel about you. I many of never had a boyfriend before but I know how I feel. I know that when you kiss me I hear fire works and when he kissed me just now I felt nothing! I know that much. And I'm sorry if I haven't shown you just how I truly felt, but Jason, I...I Love you. Please, please don't break up with me because of how dumb and how much of a B***h I've been. I'm ready to change. I was ready to make a big change. That's why I was looking for you. Please. Jason. Please."
"I'm sorry Allison. You have no idea how sorry I am." As he turned around and started to walk back up the street I fell back to the ground crying. I couldn't even form the words to ask to stay, to even call after him. I couldn't even get the strength to try and chase after him.

Author's Note

Here's Chapter 2. What do ya think?