Because of You

I wrote this about an old boyfriend of mine that had meant the world to me...

Because of you I'm scared to fall in love again.

I know my heart will never be the same but, I

tell myself I'll be okay. I let you become my

happiness and thats were I went wrong.

7 billion smiles and yours was my favorite.

The only reason I didn't let go of what made

me sad is because it was also the only

thing that made me happy.

I accept the fact that we aren't close anymore.

I need to forget the guy who never even thought

of me. It's amazing how someone can break your

heart and you still love them with every broken little

piece. I just missed how things used to be. Then again,

I hate the day I stopped believing in myself and started

believing in you because now you're gone and I'm full

of insecurities. But hardest thing about realizing you

didn't love me, is that you spent so much time pretending

that you did. Nothing really hurts more than trying so hard

to be good enough and being replaced by someone better.

You can walk right past me and pretend that I was never a

big part of your life. How stupid of me? To think I was the

only flower in your garden.

 

Anyways, enjoy your life. I just wanted to apologize for not

making it good enough. I guess. Your a good person. You

did what you could and I failed you. Maybe I am going down

the wrong path, ah well. I kinda just want closure from someone

that said they'd always be there no matter what.