Firing into the Darkness

Feeding my fear

Barking up the wrong tree again

getting what I want is not what I need

finding truth in silence and solitude

finding lies in words

finding lies in you

making sense only when I deny

waking up with purpose and losing my nerve

falling and falling and falling

the descent killing slowly

the impact perhaps another lie

I make myself unmake myself

build, destroy, learn and unlearn

instigating inevitability through self-fulfilling prophecy

I am doomed and I am fine

my mind is a contradiction of my condition

wading through pools of anxiety

only coming up for ammunition

firing into the darkness

firing into nothing